Was feeling fine about this but now...

[dreamscape11]

I am a worrier by nature, and since I have experienced some past losses, I am naturally uncomfortable about my current pregnancy. We already had one scare when the doc couldn't find the heartbeat at my 6w2d scan. But a week later it was flashing brightly at me at 127 BMP. Now I am 8w3d and have a whole 'nother week to get through before I can see my baby again and I am worrying. I just have this impending feeling of doom. We have already told all of our parents and a few close friends/family members and I don't feel good about it. I wish I wouldn't have told some of them now until at least we made it through our next ultrasound. It didn't help that my SIL cried and told me she was worried for me...that just made me feel worse. I could have sworn that my breast tenderness (which is my only real pg symptom) but completely gone this morning. It seems to have come back a bit this afternoon though. Also, I was able to get thru the whole night without peeing - and that just ain't normal. So - I hope I am just being a Debby Downer with crazy pregnancy moodswings!

 

[rosebud111]

hi dreamscape, i'm sorry for your losses. i have also had a mc and ectopic. try to take it easy. i think your emotions are completely natural for what you have been through but this is a new pregnancy and you already saw hb which means there is less than 10% of mc, according to my dr. my symptoms also weaken/strengthen so i think that is normal. i also hear you on telling family/friends. it's so hard because you want to protect yourself by keeping it to yourself until 2nd trimester but get excited when you see the people that care about you, so you tell some of them. don't worry, i think you are fine. just take one day at a time and time will pass. i am in between ultrasounds too and one minute i'm so positive and the next minute i'm negative. it sucks but it's natural. i just figure worrying isn't going to help, so better to just stay busy. Read a book, watch a movie, or your favorite shows, eat food! ha ha. most importantly take care and rest!

 

[ThinkPositiv]

i am so sorry you are so worried, but it is totally normal to be worried, esp. after having previous losses, as you have. symptoms come and go as your body asjusts to the hormones. as for peeing at night, i dont pee any more than i did pre-pregnancy! twice per night, sometimes only once! and i saw my jelybean the other day and all is fabulous. i think every woman is different. with my last pregnancy, ended in a MC, i was peeing like 3-5 times a night! and my hormone levels were never high! they are through the roof now! go figure. i know what you mean about waiting...it seems that we are always in such a rush to get through the first tri! so true though! try to keep busy and think positive - positive thought is much more beneficial to your psyche than negative thoughts! HUGS!

 

[dreamscape11]

I am actually feeling better today. Nervous/excited about Friday's ultrasound, but last night was the first time I actually felt my hardened uterus through my fat and it got me excited again. All my pg symptoms are still going strong; peeing a lot, sore bbs, tired all the time, hungry all the time, eating whatever I want and not gaining anything (woo hoo). I know I will still feel a lot more relieved after Friday though. Thanks for listening to me whine about it!

 

[rosebud111]

glad you are feeling better! yay for your ultrasound this friday! i have an ultrasound friday too! let's hope this week goes by quickly so we can hurry up and see our babies again!

 

[ThinkPositiv]

i am glad you are feeling better! friday will be here in no time! mine is next friday...now thats a ways off! tee hee hee.

 

[dreamscape11]

Just got back from the doctor and my baby's heart has stopped beating. I have a D&C scheduled for Wednesday.

 

[rosebud111]

omg, oh no! i'm so sorry dreamscape! my heart dropped to the floor when i read this. i'm so sorry to hear this news. you are stronger than you think and you will get through this. please take care dream.

 

[ThinkPositiv]

oh my goodness! i am so so sorry! my heart is breaking for you. that is just terrible. it brings back so many memories for me, and i wouldnt wish that upon anyone, and i am so terribly sorry for your loss and that you have to go through this again. HUGS