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Our LO is 20 months old and I've found myself here! The second thing I told my husband after giving birth was "Never again!" 
Well, it's been a bit of a rollercoaster. Labor was terrible (2 weeks overdue and nearly 2 weeks of prodromal labor, 34 hours after induction, 2 rounds of misoprostol and 2 of pitocin, unmedicated due to health issues, baby got stuck and nearly needed a c-section). I told hubs that there was NO WAY I could go through it a second time. I've been fighting against having a second child, especially as more and more people push me about it. "You owe it to your son!" I still have sciatica from it, I still have a weak bladder from it, I put back on half of the "baby weight" once I started weaning (a process which still isn't complete, sigh).
Anyway, I wouldn't undo it for the world. My kiddo is my life! I'm just not sure how I'm going to do this a second time, or how we'll manage with two! I'm lucky enough to be a WAHM with a full-time job and a part-time business, but it's a struggle to juggle work, a toddler, animals, cooking, cleaning, etc. I don't know how supermoms do it!
After having to quit my office job, I consequently lost my health insurance, and I'm about to get coverage again through my husband's new job. Soooooo once I get a chance to go in and get a pelvic exam, if everything is okay, I'll be asking my doc to remove my IUD so we can TTC again. I'm terrified.
If anyone recognizes me from last time, you know my son was my fifth pregnancy, with 4 losses before him. I've since lost 2 more. I don't know why I am so prone to pregnancy even with an IUD in, but it runs in the family. No birth control can stop us. The problem is, as always, carrying to term. Women in my family lose more than they carry to term.
Now I'll also be dealing with the joys of being on the cusp of "advanced maternal age" at the doddering grandmotherly age of 34.
Part of me is scared that there will be something wrong with the ol' lady parts and I won't get clearance from my doc for a second child. Sex has been painful ever since I gave birth, probably a combination of a weak pelvic floor and the fact that the birthing process popped some old scar tissue inside my vagina, which required stitches. (Not a perineal tear, he literally popped my vajayjay open from the inside.) Part of me is scared of the inevitable miscarriage until one "sticks." Part of me is scared -- thanks, Mom! -- that I won't even be able to conceive because I've aged a few years. And then there is the sheer terror of another laboring disaster.
As always, I've rambled on much too long, but I wanted to warn you that I'll be back soon! I'll be ordering my favorite handy-dandy ovulation and pregnancy test strips in bulk shortly.
Well, it's been a bit of a rollercoaster. Labor was terrible (2 weeks overdue and nearly 2 weeks of prodromal labor, 34 hours after induction, 2 rounds of misoprostol and 2 of pitocin, unmedicated due to health issues, baby got stuck and nearly needed a c-section). I told hubs that there was NO WAY I could go through it a second time. I've been fighting against having a second child, especially as more and more people push me about it. "You owe it to your son!" I still have sciatica from it, I still have a weak bladder from it, I put back on half of the "baby weight" once I started weaning (a process which still isn't complete, sigh).
Anyway, I wouldn't undo it for the world. My kiddo is my life! I'm just not sure how I'm going to do this a second time, or how we'll manage with two! I'm lucky enough to be a WAHM with a full-time job and a part-time business, but it's a struggle to juggle work, a toddler, animals, cooking, cleaning, etc. I don't know how supermoms do it!
After having to quit my office job, I consequently lost my health insurance, and I'm about to get coverage again through my husband's new job. Soooooo once I get a chance to go in and get a pelvic exam, if everything is okay, I'll be asking my doc to remove my IUD so we can TTC again. I'm terrified.
If anyone recognizes me from last time, you know my son was my fifth pregnancy, with 4 losses before him. I've since lost 2 more. I don't know why I am so prone to pregnancy even with an IUD in, but it runs in the family. No birth control can stop us. The problem is, as always, carrying to term. Women in my family lose more than they carry to term.
Now I'll also be dealing with the joys of being on the cusp of "advanced maternal age" at the doddering grandmotherly age of 34.
Part of me is scared that there will be something wrong with the ol' lady parts and I won't get clearance from my doc for a second child. Sex has been painful ever since I gave birth, probably a combination of a weak pelvic floor and the fact that the birthing process popped some old scar tissue inside my vagina, which required stitches. (Not a perineal tear, he literally popped my vajayjay open from the inside.) Part of me is scared of the inevitable miscarriage until one "sticks." Part of me is scared -- thanks, Mom! -- that I won't even be able to conceive because I've aged a few years. And then there is the sheer terror of another laboring disaster.
As always, I've rambled on much too long, but I wanted to warn you that I'll be back soon! I'll be ordering my favorite handy-dandy ovulation and pregnancy test strips in bulk shortly.
That's absolutely heart wrenching, Dill. I'm so sorry... 
is traveling an option for you? Maybe there's a birthing centre in nearby city that would take your insurance?
) and I'll be starting right away, along with temping! I'm going to upgrade my cycle tracking app to the paid version at the start of September, too. I'm actually due to ovulate shortly after I get it removed, so I doubt it'll happen right away (no time for lining to build back up). I bled last time, but that's because the removal caused a MMC. No clue if it'll cause bleeding this go-around. But you never know, September could still be my month! That would be exciting, I'd be able to get my blood test done and know the gender before Christmas!
