Well, that good mood didn't last long

[Amos2009]

I have been cramping tonight and went to the bathroom and now I am spotting I pray it's just Tweety settling in, but I'm not very hopeful

 

[heart tree]

Oh no! Spotting and cramping aren't the end of the story. Can you call your doctor?

 

[Amos2009]

I can't call them. They would tell me there is nothing they can do this early. I do go to give blood in the morning. If I am still spotting I will talk to them. But this is how the last 2 mc started around this time

 

[impatient1]

I am keeping my fingers crossed that it is just baby settling in. Hope you can get some answers tomorrow at the doctors.

 

[heart tree]

Oh god Amos! I'm praying as hard as I can that this isn't happening again. I'm so frustrated with our medical system that there isn't anything they can do. How is it we can send people to space, do organ transplants and brain surgery, but we can't help women during this delicate time?

I wish I had a crystal ball that could tell you it is going to be ok. Short of that, I'll tell you that I'm thinking of you and sending you as much positive energy as I can. Please keep us updated.

 

[Amos2009]

Thanks Heart. I don't understand it either. How can something that is so simple for most everyone (even the ones that don't deserve it) is so DAMN difficult for me??

 

[Neko]

Did you get any bloodwork or a scan today?

 

[hb1]

Thinking of you Amos - fingers tightly crossed for your little bean

hx

 

[kanga]

Ive got my fx'd for you, hopefully it it is IB and all is well in there xx

 

[heart tree]

Waiting for news and thinking about you today.

xoxo

 

[Amos2009]

Well, I am in more limbo than I really wanted to be in. They did an ultrasound on me today for some reason and they think they see the beginnings of a sac. BUT it's not in the right place. It is a cornual ectopic. Basically it's in the top right had "corner" of my uterus. Right outside the right tube. I am waiting on my bloodwork to get back so they can determine if it's even too early to see a sac based on my numbers. I pray it is too early because a cornual ectopic is not good at all.

 

[heart tree]

Uuuggghhhh!!!! I have no words. I don't understand how this could be happening to you again. This makes no sense. When will you have more information? I'm so sorry this is happening.

 

[Amos2009]

Heart- they are going to scan me again tomorrow but I really expect no change. They are being extra careful because if it does turn out to be a cornual ectopic, the mortality rate is very high if it ruptures so they want to monitor it.

 

[Beadette]

Oh Amy! Why are things never straightforward eh flower?! This is so unfair that you are in this awful limbo! I will wish on a star that all is ok!

Lots of love Hun xxxx

 

[Amos2009]

Thanks Beadette. I just wish ONE time I could go into an ultrasound room and come out with a smile on my face.

 

[mislaww]

Amos, I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's beyond unfair. My fingers are crossed for you, though. Your HCG looked good so try to think positive if you can? My thoughts are with you.

 

[Amos2009]

Thanks Annie. My doctor really did a good job at easing my fears yesterday. He even said if this is the sac, sometimes they move down to where they are supposed to. Sooo.....I am really trying to just turn it all over to God and know that I am in good hands.

 

[debgreasby]

 

[fluffyblue]

Thinking of you babe xx

 

[Minimin]

Thinking of you today Amos. I am praying with all my heart that beanie is in the right place.

Lots of love

Minimin x