what do i do?? (warning tmi in this one!)

[doc123]

i've posted over in ist too.. so sorry for repeating.. i'm 10+5, had a rocky time with this 4th pregnancy and 3 previous mc and lost 5 babies already...

anyway to cut to the chase.. since 8 weeks i've been sure that this one is over as i've lost the morning sickness and feel really really normal again...i've been desperately trying to ignore it but its there and its really upsetting me now......

3 weeks ago i had a little sore patch on my left labia(sorry if tmi!!!) so i had a quick look and it was just a little scratch and was surprised to see the purplish kinda colour which women get when pregnant and feel really pleased to have such a positive sign.. anyway today had another look as had the same feeling and the colour has completely gone... its supposed to stay throughout pregnancy!!!!! This just comfirmed that everything i've been feeling and trying not to acknowledge is maybe true.....

and i'm gutted! I have a scan booked for 2 weeks but i just know its all over and i just want to know now its over...i dont think i can go through the whole thing all over again.. and worse have to wait two weeks for it to be confirmed again....

has anyone else had anything else like this?? i'm so so so upset about the whole thing.. i've been trying to be positive.. but i cant keep going like this anymore.....what do i do???

 

[Lyns]

Oh sweetie, it is awful that you have had this terrible journey so far. I can't believe that life would deal you more crap.

Only you can make the decision of what to do hunny, but if it were me, I would be down the doc's first thing in the morning, and to be honest, I'd tell them whatever i needed to tell them to get another scan pronto....you cannot torture yourself, like this for 2 weeks. And its unreasonable for them to do that to you after the amount of losses you've had. You should feel perfectly entitled to scan a week if you wanted....IMO.

But remember....you've had a little miracle happen already when you found you were carrying 2 babies and one hung in there, there's no reason whatsover that can't happen again (not two babies, but I mean another miracle - this ones a fighter I think!). Maybe the reason you felt so rough is that your symptons were double as you were carrying two? And now the hormone levels are more manageable as its only one.

Please try and stay positive...all you have been through has made you a strong person. I know you probably don't feel it now - the last two years have been hard for me for other reasons and I felt it had drained all my strength, but I found I still had reserves when I lost my LO a month back. So please remember how this LO has hung on so far and cling onto that.

And....to be fair, you lost the other through bleeding....isn't it fair to say that if this one had of gone, that you probably would have seen the physical evidence by now - I know there's no guarantee of that, but its another little factor to give you hope.

Praying so hard for you sweetie....I truly am xxxxxx

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

dont give up hunni... u should no by now it aint over untill the dr's say. loads of ppl losse symptoms then get them back later. dont give up yet.

 

[DaisyDuke]

Oh babe i think u should go to ur gp explain ur concerns, and hopefully they will scan u again in the next few days. I'm so behind u with this pregnancy and praying for u if there was anything i could physically do i would.

 

[Naya69]

i wouldnt give up hope hunnie when i was pregnant i got feelings like that all the time i would wake up one day feeling so normal i would panic and head straight for the docs to listen to the babys heart beat the doctor was so nice about my concerns she said i could go when ever i wanted to listen to the heartbeat i know your not that far but i would go to the hospital for a scan dont put yourself through hell the next two weeks woundering what ifs

praying for you hunnie

 

[JASMAK]

Can you go in to your DR's complaining of pain on the side...just to get a scan. I know it's sneeky, and it's lying, but, if you think your DR won't give you one any other way, I would. I am desperately hoping that your wrong on this one tho.

 

[Rumpskin]

With what you have experienced darling, I would tell a porky and get a reassurance scan asap.

My heart goes out to you both xxxx

 

[jen1604]

I would do what the other girls have said honey and do whatever you can to get a reassurance scan.Let us know what happens...Keeping my fingers crossed for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[princess_t]

have u seen the doc. yet. hope u get an early scan

 

[lauraxloo]

I would definitely try and get an early scan by phoning the EPAU. If everything is fine with you then the worry won't be doing you any good. I think you have to know one way or another and two weeks is a long time when you're so upset. Let us know how you get on!
Take care babe.

xx

 

[Logiebear]

Definately try to get an earlier scan through to EPAU hun, they should be trying to help you at every turn after thing you have been through. I am thinking positive thoughts for you and keeping everything crossed xxx

 

[lola]

Are you okay Doc? Did you manage to get a scan?

 

[bump#3]

try not to give up hope! With this pregnancy i was terrifed every day that i felt normal because of a previous miscarriage but everything turned out fine and please god it will be the same for you! Please let us know how you get on. We are all really worried about you!

 

[honeybunch2k7]

Is there any way at all you can get a scan ASAP?

 

[NoClueMommy]

Its pretty easy to get a scan here. As long as theirs reason i.e. bleeding. They usually will get you in that day. Also, can you not just take a pg test?, or would that not work? Sorry I don't know other then to get a scan, I hope all is well!!