what i wish i could say on FB....

[xobabyhopes]

this is going to kind of be a vent thing along w/ my wish i could put it on FB status.


so the other night i went to Taco Bell after work, they had nothing that i knew right off the bat wasnt pop besides raspberry tea (yuck) to drink. so i asked the cashier what they had that was caffiene free. he answered me like i was a crazy lady and i was kinda annoyed by it. i wanted to be like "sorry to waste your precious time but i have a rainbow baby growing inside me and im not drinking caffiene because i dont want to do anything to jeopardize this baby since we lost one" instead being the chicken i am i just gave him a dirty look lol its not like i was asking for breakdown of each and every item on the menu just what had no caff because i couldn't see the tiny pop symbols. ugh i know its not a huge deal and then my hormones went crazy but people are so disrespectful in the public service jobs these days.


what i wish i could say on FB:
WE'RE PREGNANT, AGAIN!!!!!! (but please dont congratulate me until i am out of the first trimester, dont want to jinx myself )

 

[ncmommy]

Great, now I want Taco Bell! Best bet for soda when you don't know is sprite or 7up and root beer, those are all caffeine free.

I still have not announced on FB and not sure if or when I will. Family and close friends know but I'm still too scared to tell the rest of the world.

 

[xobabyhopes]

i feel ya on being too scared to tell anyone. i feel like if i tell the FB world something will go wrong again or something. the only people who know are my parents, my mammaw, his mom & her boyfriend. of course you ladies too since we wont tell anyone else just yet


ha sorry for the instant taco bell, i now want taco bell again lol the problem was that they pop tiles were so tiny that i couldnt see any of them, i only know they have tea because hubby always gets that. i always go for sprite (those kind of pops) or root beer though.

hope your LO is doing good

 

[xobabyhopes]

spelling and grammar mistakes all over sorry!

 

[Biotechick829]

Taco Bell sounds aaaammaazing right now! I know, I've gone there and asked for soda water or club soda and they said that they don't have it (you have a soda fountain, don't you?! Then you have club soda, grrr!)

Also, DH and I aren't posting anything on Facebook until our rainbow is in our arms. Last pregnancy we posted our 12w scan thinking everything was ok, only to have to take it down a week later with a sad post about meeting our baby in heaven Do what makes you feel comfortable. People in your life that mean the most will know

 

[xobabyhopes]

we arent telling anyone on FB, because of the same reason. we put our 10w scan up and then a week later we lost our little angel. if they find out they find out if not oh well lol

 

[jessandaj]

People are ridiculous its a fricking simple question to answer. I know when i get pregnant again im going to wanna tell the world but me and dh are keeping it between us and the ladys on here for the first 12 or 13 or maybe until i cant hide my bump and everyones just like so youre pregnant right ? Im going to be so scared about jinx myself. Lots of sticky dust to you !

 

[xobabyhopes]

thank you and thats how me and hubby are, we are waiting until people just start noticing lol we never really see anybody since all we do is work so it shouldnt be that hard ha

 

[xobabyhopes]

also i am very sorry for your loss

 

[jessandaj]

Thank you, it's hard but seeing other people who have had losses and are now pregnant again is encouraging I'll just be happy as long as I can get a bfp in under a year this time around.

 

[xobabyhopes]

thats honestly what kept me so positive each and every month even though i thought my genetics and past were against me. it took my mammaw 12 years to get pregnant with her 1st and then my great aunt had 5 mc before she was able to carry her two sons. each time i saw another one of the girls from the support forum or ttc after loss forum getting their BFP i knew i would too. if its ok ill pray for you and your hubby to get a sticky baby.

 

[jessandaj]

Yes it deffenintly is okay I'll keep you and you're baby in my prayers to. I also thought odds were against me just because my mother was diagnosed as being infertile and was told she would most likely never get pregnant and had severe endometriosis but miraculously got pregnant with me and another baby later on which she had to abort due to cancerous tumers in her reproductive organs. Though I've found out I have no medical problems exept a tilted uterus which isint really a problem more of a nusense lol.

 

[EchoMyke]

I totally feel where you're coming from on being scared to jinx things. There won't be a point with this pregnancy that I'll feel like everything's okay though, not until I'm holding him in my arms. This is my fourth pregnancy. The first time i was 19 and only knew i was pregnant for a couple weeks before i woke up in the middle of the night from horrible cramping and miscarried. The second time was a few years later and everything seemed fine, even had terrible morning sickness. So i was shocked when i went in for the ultrasound where I'd get to see baby's heartbeat only to find that he/she would never develop one. Then last year, i became pregnant again. I was scared to tell anyone at first. Had to wait until that 12 week marker to feel we were through the danger zone. Eventually, i allowed myself to embrace the pregnancy and let my guard down. I managed to let go of the fear. Then at 39 weeks i was given the most painful need ever... Ryder Drake was gone. I chose to be induced that day and at 5:10 the next morning i gave birth to my beautiful baby boy. He looked so perfect that my mind and heart couldn't believe he wouldn't open his eyes. Now I'm 29 weeks with another boy and I'm still scared. Won't have a baby shower until after he's here, and won't publicly announce his name until i know for certain that it's a birth certificate I'll be writing it on, not a death certificate. Seems silly, but it's my security blanket. But if I've learned anything it's that the fear is and always will be there... but it doesn't have to ruin all the positives, or steal my hope entirely. Whatever will be, will be. Take your time when doing these things and do them on your own schedule - when it feels right for you and yours. All my love and best wishes

 

[Pray2bBlessed]

Great, now I want Taco Bell! Best bet for soda when you don't know is sprite or 7up and root beer, those are all caffeine free.

I still have not announced on FB and not sure if or when I will. Family and close friends know but I'm still too scared to tell the rest of the world.

Jut thought I'd chirp in to make sure you all know that some root beer isn't caffeine free. I know Barq's brand has caffeine in it. So just make sure you watch labels!