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I can't understand it, I feel SO disconnected from this pregnancy and the worst part is I should be jumping for joy.
I suffered really bad gender disappointment and severe postnatal depression with my son. I was absolutely petrified I'd end up with another boy but knew that was the risk with getting pregnant, however, I got my little girl! Im going to have a daughter!!!
So why oh why am I not grinning from ear to ear? I've been and done tonnes of pink shopping, picked a name, done all the usual things once you know gender and I still feel so disconnected from this little one. I don't feel like she really even exists, bar seeing her on a screen she feels not real.
I'm doing and saying all the right things to friends but really I just feel lost. This pregnancy has been much harder on me than with my son so I don't know if that plays a part. I'm also so worried that she's not a girl after all and that I shouldn't be celebrating her being a girl when she might not be. I don't feel as though I'm lucky enough to "get what I want".
Someone please tell me I'm not going mad, is it normal to feel so disconnected?
I suffered really bad gender disappointment and severe postnatal depression with my son. I was absolutely petrified I'd end up with another boy but knew that was the risk with getting pregnant, however, I got my little girl! Im going to have a daughter!!!
So why oh why am I not grinning from ear to ear? I've been and done tonnes of pink shopping, picked a name, done all the usual things once you know gender and I still feel so disconnected from this little one. I don't feel like she really even exists, bar seeing her on a screen she feels not real.
I'm doing and saying all the right things to friends but really I just feel lost. This pregnancy has been much harder on me than with my son so I don't know if that plays a part. I'm also so worried that she's not a girl after all and that I shouldn't be celebrating her being a girl when she might not be. I don't feel as though I'm lucky enough to "get what I want".
Someone please tell me I'm not going mad, is it normal to feel so disconnected?