With Jade there was a hell of a lot of pressure to breast feed, I was not offered any bottles in hospital at all and was told no matter how hard it may get or what people say, never give up breast is best. Well tbh I had never even given it a thought before this and just went along with the BF.
Anyway, when Jade was around 5 days old my GP popped in to check on us and it turned out I was starving her, my milk was just not there despite blisters and bleeding thru trying.....I was not able to produce enough to keep her fed and hydrated, so from that day I moved to FF and never looked back.
With Alfie, I did try to BF but I was so aware of what happened last time and how close to danger we came, that I decided to FF too to make sure that all angles was covered. I seemed to be a bit better this time (but I was never going to be able to BF exclusively with my supply or lack of), although Alfie got a cold at around 4wks old and found it hard to latch on with his cold. The cold lasted just short of 2 weeks and by the time he was ok to BF again, he wasn't interested. So again it was purely formula from that point on.
This time I will try to BF again, but I will also be using formula as I know I am just not cut out for this BF lark. But I do like to try and give atleast the colostrum in the first few days if nothing else as it is packed with tons of anti-bodies, so I would never give up on trying for that reason alone. x