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Part of me wants to get stronger but the other part of me is just gone I have been crying ALL day and it wont stop for me, why? I can sit here and type to everyone in need and say it gets better but why isn't it getting better for me?
Why do I miss her so much why am i always angry and fighting with my family, why can't i just accept she is gone and move on, why? I can't sleep i dream every night sometimes good sometimes bad, I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!!!
Nobody understands me so what is the point in talking to people in my everyday life, there is no support or understanding just telling me to move on and I can't, why am I still stuck, why?
I am so scared if I do get pregnant and lose this child it will break me and I will leave this earth
that I am sure of. I feel so helpless, I want her back I want to hold her and love her and dress her and feed her.
I really feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown, I try so hard for my 11yr old to keep myself together but he knows he hears me cry every night.
I am afraid that if I don't get better i am not going to make it, I am so lost, i just want my baby back...
Why do I miss her so much why am i always angry and fighting with my family, why can't i just accept she is gone and move on, why? I can't sleep i dream every night sometimes good sometimes bad, I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!!!
Nobody understands me so what is the point in talking to people in my everyday life, there is no support or understanding just telling me to move on and I can't, why am I still stuck, why?
I am so scared if I do get pregnant and lose this child it will break me and I will leave this earth
that I am sure of. I feel so helpless, I want her back I want to hold her and love her and dress her and feed her.
I really feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown, I try so hard for my 11yr old to keep myself together but he knows he hears me cry every night.
I am afraid that if I don't get better i am not going to make it, I am so lost, i just want my baby back...