why even bother and get my hopes up everytime! :(

[longing]

I do this too! Try hard not to get hopes up but cant help it. It takes over our lives doesn't it. It is definatly the hardest thing. Almost like grieving every month, emotionally draining. I too think maybe there is a reason, maybe I would be a terrible mother. But I kinda know I will be a good mum. A lot of people tell me this too, which makes things even harder.

Good luck ladies, the only thing we can do is keep going. Strength to you all xxx

 

[Serenyx]

Every month though I symptom spot no symptoms and watch my temp chart like a nutter. Then bawl when I start spotting. Totally feel you.
I have to stop living my life in 2 week incriments

This sounds so familiar

I try to stop symptom spotting, but end up doing it anyway - even when my temp starts dropping I still hold out the smallest hope only to be so disappointed when AF shows

 

[Myshelsong]

It is completely like grieving every single month. I grieve for something that was never there to begin with but had all the possibility of being wonderful.

It sounds crazy but it is just the way that it is. I hope that one day we can finally feel complete. That is all i am looking for at this point.