Why I am so emotional?

[hopingforit]

I seriously have tears in my eyes right now. I am in the TWW (6DPO) and I was browsing the TWW forum when I saw a thread about someone taking a test. Usually these ones are just to say that it is negative or they need help line spotting but when I opened it...it was just a thread saying that the person got a positive. Then I realized that this person just started trying this month. I didn't expect a BFP thread to be in the TWW forum as it isn't allowed. They are only supposed to post BFP in already started threads about their TWW..not start a new one. I don't know why I am getting so emotional over it. I try to avoid threads where people get a BFP after such a short period of time and that is why I avoid threads in the pregnancy announcement section that don't mention the amount of time they were TTC. I feel horrible for getting upset over it. I'm just really having trouble this month. I have to get an HSG next month if AF shows and I am just scared because I heard it's very painful. I really want a BFP this month but I don't think it's going to happen. My Dr said that I should keep a positive attitude and think "if" AF comes but I just can't. I have only been TTC for 17 months - 19 cycles - not as long as some of you here - so I don't know why I feel this way. Is it wrong of me to feel so emotional about this? I don't know why but I can feel happy for people who get their BFP after a year + of trying but I just can't be happy for people who get their BFP right away. I feel like a horrible person.

 

[SabrinaKat]

Don't feel that you are horrible for feeling the way you do -- a co-worker last year got pregnant the first month of trying and we had been trying for over a year at that stage (after a mc the previous year, and I got pregnant the second month of trying then, and oh, was I smug!) and it took us another year (2 years in total to get lucky) and my LO was born earlier this month....

In fact, we were a month away from IVF because I had been told due to PCOS, I probably couldn't have children, but because I was so healthy, I did get pregnant naturally -- and I was 43 when I conceived (44 now)!

It's completely natural to be jealous, but it's how you 'use' the frustration that counts -- e.g. I congratulated her and then focused on myself (losing weight, etc., so that I knew I was being 'pro-active', if that makes sense ....

best wishes (and you are NOT alone!)

 

[hopingforit]

Don't feel that you are horrible for feeling the way you do -- a co-worker last year got pregnant the first month of trying and we had been trying for over a year at that stage (after a mc the previous year, and I got pregnant the second month of trying then, and oh, was I smug!) and it took us another year (2 years in total to get lucky) and my LO was born earlier this month....

In fact, we were a month away from IVF because I had been told due to PCOS, I probably couldn't have children, but because I was so healthy, I did get pregnant naturally -- and I was 43 when I conceived (44 now)!

It's completely natural to be jealous, but it's how you 'use' the frustration that counts -- e.g. I congratulated her and then focused on myself (losing weight, etc., so that I knew I was being 'pro-active', if that makes sense ....

best wishes (and you are NOT alone!)

Thank you for your reply. I guess I had hoped that I would get pregnant naturally and now I have blood tests and the HSG and my Dr said that if I wasn't pregnant this month, he would start fertility meds. So, this month is especially hard on me because I have one last chance to get pregnant naturally before starting in on the treatment. Since I started TTC, about 10 people I know have gotten pregnant an I have a hard time even going on FB lately because all I see are pictures of babies. And seeing positive pregnancy tests just tear me apart.

I don't mention anything to anyone if I see a post that I am jealous of. I just keep it to myself but I just sort of lost it at that one. I am trying to be positive. I have a blood test next week then DHs SA on Saturday so I do have a couple of things to help break up the time between now and the 5th when AF is due. I'm just hoping that I can get over this jealousy. I am happy for them that they are able to get their BFPs, I'm just not happy that I can't.

I'll just try to focus and hope that if this month is not the month, the HSG causes me to become more fertile and I get my BFP after that.

Thank you again and congrats on your new little bundle of joy!

 

[theclarks8687]

I noticed that post and was upset over it too. But don't be nervous bout the HSG. All I heard was these horror stories and the worst part was a pink when they inserting the balloon thingy. But afterwards I found out it helps you conceive the following three months. So it could be a good thing.

 

[hopefull85]

i have been trying for almost 5 years now. i get so mad to the point of tears when i see women getting pregnant so fast and easy. i have to deal with my 22 year old sis in law getting pregnant 5 months after getting her IUD takikng out to have a second kid first one was when she was 16. i have written on here many times about her. my husband and i have started taking fertility supplements i am so praying that within the next couple of months i get a BFP. i wish you luck. and never feel bad for the way you feel towards others.

 

[hopingforit]

I noticed that post and was upset over it too. But don't be nervous bout the HSG. All I heard was these horror stories and the worst part was a pink when they inserting the balloon thingy. But afterwards I found out it helps you conceive the following three months. So it could be a good thing.

My Dr did mention that fertility seems to improve in the few months after the HSG so that is one very exciting thing for me. Also, my Dr said that a lot of people get pregnant within a few months of seeing him whether they get testing like that or not. I'm hopeful. I've seen so many conflicting things online about how the HSG feels. Some people said it was worse than childbirth and others said they felt no pain at all. Thank you for your answer and congrats on your pregnancy! Have a H&H 9 months!

 

[hopingforit]

i have been trying for almost 5 years now. i get so mad to the point of tears when i see women getting pregnant so fast and easy. i have to deal with my 22 year old sis in law getting pregnant 5 months after getting her IUD takikng out to have a second kid first one was when she was 16. i have written on here many times about her. my husband and i have started taking fertility supplements i am so praying that within the next couple of months i get a BFP. i wish you luck. and never feel bad for the way you feel towards others.

Wow. 5 year is an awful long time to try. I have been better over the last few days about this. That one day was just absolutely horrible day for me and when AF shows, I'm sure I will end up like that again. I have trouble even going on my Facebook anymore because I would say at least 15 people I know are currently pregnant or have small babies right now. It is so frustrating. I just hope I'm pregnant before my sister starts trying in July because she got pregnant within a few months with her daughter when she was 17 and got pregnant in 1 month when TTC but sadly that ending in a mmc for her. I hope you get your BFP soon! I'm sending you lots of !