Will this ever happen???

[ces2008]

CD 1 again. And almost at my 28th month trying. Im getting frustrated! Idk if this will ever happen! I will keep trying and never give up hope. But DH and I have been talking, and if it doesnt happen in another year or so, we will start the process to become Foster Parents. We will never stop trying, but realize there are other ways to become parents. Who knows. Maybe once we become focused on becomming Foster Parents, maybe then we will get our BFP! Giving it another year...... I hope it happens soon!!!

 

[heres_hoping]

I'm really sorry I think this is the worst part of the whole process,not knowing how much longer, or "if ever". We had a similar chat yesterday, I told hubby I needed to know where this ends. We have agreed to go as far as three rounds of IVF, if we need to, but then that is it. We don't want to become that couple who got into massive debt and still had no baby.

I think it helps me to know I won't be in limbo forever, one way or another, this journey will end. If it doesn't end the way I want, as you say, there are other paths to parenthood.

 

[xxshellsxx]

I never thought it would happen and only said on Sunday that after 12 years TTC when i get my Clomid in October when that's done in 6 months - i'm done! Moving on with my life.

I had my lap and dye 6/7 weeks ago... i got my first ever BFP on Monday this week... i always had hope and as long as you have hope anything can happen xx

 

[ces2008]

Thanks Ladies!!! Your words help more then you know!!!

 

[ces2008]

Oops. Posted Twice. See the next post please!

 

[ces2008]

I never thought it would happen and only said on Sunday that after 12 years TTC when i get my Clomid in October when that's done in 6 months - i'm done! Moving on with my life.

I had my lap and dye 6/7 weeks ago... i got my first ever BFP on Monday this week... i always had hope and as long as you have hope anything can happen xx

I forgot to say Congrats!!!

I havnt had a Lap and Dye. Had a Diagnostic Lap in November 2010 looking for Endo, which resulted in my Appendix being removed cuz it was 3x normal size (tho no signs of inflammation) but no Endo. Ive had a HSG in April 2012. The RN in charge of the Infertility Clinic said that if no pregnancy after 18 months, they will redo it. So thats prob what will happen next month or so. Im supposed do Letrozole, but have to get my weight down more before they will start it, which is difficult with my antidepressant (which I will have to take throughout pregnancy).

So, stuck in limbo, trying naturally and getting frustrated every month. But NEVER EVER giving up hope!!!!!!

 

[xxshellsxx]

Ty x For weight loss i did slimming world and it's available in the USA now, it's very easy to follow and worked a dream for me i would recommend it to anyone! they have a website you can get a free 7 day plan off of so you can try it out for free. It's real food, no faddy rubbish and real postions! MY FS still can't believe how quickly my weight came off (i was 252lbs) i'm 78.5lbs down in less than a year x

 

[Myshelsong]

Hey Ces

Same situation here, started the same month and everything although I was off the pill for over a year before we started trying trying.

Honestly I feel that it will never happen and I really should just get on the adoption route before it is to late.
I also have a fair bit of weight to get rid of but having such a hard time doing this! Being so upset all the time is not helpful but finally started doing yoga daily so hopefully will be able to get in a routine of more excersize to loose the weight.

 

[ces2008]

Thanks! Ill look into slimming world! Ive been actively trying since June 2011, but in our entire 11 year relationship, DH and I have never used any form of Birth Control, so it seems longer!!! Even when not trying when CD 1 came, I was bummed!

 

[Myshelsong]

CD 1 is the worst. I usually cry for a minute or so because I am so devastated, even knowing it isnt going to happen naturally I can not help but feel so awful and heartbroken every single month. It is like a loss every month of something that could have been great but never even existed.

I am really thankful for the ladies i have met on here, they are a great support and at least lets me know that what I am feeling and thinking is totally NORMAL in my situation.

 

[ces2008]

I know EXACTLY how you feel!!! It doesnt help that I get extremely horrible cramps and a very heavy flow. Its horrible!!! I usually end up taking 2 Midol, then 1 or 2 more an hour later to take SOME of the pain away. Nothing else helps, except sitting in a HOT bath (like, almost too hot to bear) or holding a hot water bottle to my pelvic area filled with water that was run through the coffee pot.

Hope things get easier and we all get our BFP's soon! Has anyone been told to get a repeat HSG after 18 months?

 

[Myshelsong]

yeah I also have the same thing.
Normally take the max dose of Ibuprofen once I know it has officially started and then every 4 hours until the next day. If I miss that or am late it is a living hell. Thankfully I dont have Endo, I heard that is even worse than what I have, although I cannot imagine it!


I had one HSG on December than another one in June with my Lap.

 

[ces2008]

I dont have Endo either. My mom ended up getting a hysterectomy because of Endo. But even her pain from that wasnt as bad as mine. My mom always compared her pain to mine and almost didnt get checked cuz she knew I didnt have it and have so much pain anyways. AF is almost gone, so just about time to start BDing Every other day again! Fingers crossed this is the month!!!

 

[Myshelsong]

Good luck with that.

I can honestly say I do not miss that at all! We are taking a break from eveything ttc as it was driving us both (me mostly) mad, and the forced sex was the worst.
Booked my acupuncture appointment for next week in hopes that it will help with my anxiety. I am hoping to go the natural route before i get into medications with my dr.

 

[ces2008]

Good luck with ur break. Are you preventing? Maybe taking this break will end up with a surprise!!!

 

[Myshelsong]

No we are not preventing and a surprise would be fantastic but I am not going to get my hopes up. this month I am pretty sure we missed O as Scott had eye surgery and we really didnt get any fun time in.

I am on the second month of the break and mentally I am a lot stronger. I have my first acupuncture appointment next Monday (as long as I can leave early for work) so hoping this will help deal with my anxiety. I never realized how stressed out and crazy that this would make me feel, it has been a dark struggle for the last 2 years so I am really hoping this helps. If not I will have to go on medication, I know that I cannot keep doing this the way taht I am doing it.
I have always had stress but I was always able to manage it so I know that it is what is making me feel less secure with myself which is why I am trying the holistic route before medication. I understand you are on medication and just want to know I dont judge and I do think medication is a good thing. I just hate going to the Drs for a prescription .... Is that weird?

 

[ces2008]

Alot of people are like that. Not wierd at all. I actually tried dealing with my depression with my primary, without meds. Then, I overdosed. Every time we try lowering the doses of either my Antidepressant or Antipsychotic, I daydream about ways to "end things" and admit myself. On the medicine regimen Im on, its been almost 2 years since I was hospitalized. I still have moments where I feel suicidal, or like cutting myself, but I can get through them better! I also see a therapist regularly!

 

[Myshelsong]

Good for you taking control of your mental health!

What is next on your fertility plan. I see clomid didn't do it, will you be trying IUI?

 

[ces2008]

Right now we are trying naturally, but not stressing on it too much. Gotta get my weight down. Then we can try Letrozole. If that doesnt work, then prob IUI. I might have to go have another ERCP at the University of Minnesota Medical Center cuz my Sphincter of Oddi Dyzsfunction is causing me extreme amount of Abdominal Pain. So cant really Try Try, if that makes any sense.

 

[GirlArmyPilot]

We have been TTC since Jul2011....no luck. 4 Rounds of clomid. We were diagnosed with unexplained infertility as well. The only thing that the doc could find is that I have an arcurate uterus, but it is still considered normal. We are both in the military. We will be doing IVF next month. We skipped over the IUI and have planned to be aggressive.