Dezireey
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Sorry for the long rant, need to get this off my chest
My FOB and I have been sort of split up now for 5 months (dumped me because he categorically did not want children) I kept my babba (due in 5 weeks time) and I just thought the pain of not being together/not being a family would go away but it hasn't yet. We have been talking / texting on and off for the past two months and it just didnt go anywhere. We met up two weeks ago and the spark was still there but he looked tired, pale and stressed (job,life,etc) and we made out for a bit, which I should not have done as it made me feel a bit weak again, like I was taking him back despite everything.He didnt organise to see me again either. He is so wrapped up in himself its unreal. Today I nearly lost the plot, on his facebook page he posts to a woman (that um, sort of looks like his friends Mother?) that his friend would freak if he knew they met up and that 'dinner was nice hey '-I took that as meaning they went on a date!! I was inconsolable and after nearly two weeks of not contacting him, I asked him if he was seeing someone new. Of course he denied it and said no he absolutely wasn't and that he was moving abroad as planned and he couldnt handle the stress of dating anyway?? of course it could be entirely innocent but he is saying things now like he needs time alone, away, he doesnt know about anything anymore, people in general are upsetting him and I got what I wanted didn't I!
Why, oh why do I still love such a tool?. I could beg on my hands and knees for him to come back and support his unborn child and I think he would give me a oneliner about how he has no life or his life is shit. I genuinely also think that if I was in hospital for an emergency right now, the man would do nothing. and yet two weeks ago he sent me this poem?? go figure. How to make me suffer
The life that I have
Is all that I have
And the life that I have
Is yours.
The love that I have
Of the life that I have
Is yours and yours and yours.
A sleep I shall have
A rest I shall have
Yet death will be but a pause.
For the peace of my years
In the long green grass
Will be yours and yours and yours.
I also had a woman in work today question me about why my man had left me and what a horrible person he was (I agreed until she got snobby) She said 'well I am so glad I have a supportive hubby and that I can rely on him for everything, he even drove 20 miles across town when I was pregnant to get my favourite ice cream' I just glared at her and said 'well, that's nice, I also thought my boyfriend was 'supportive' and I could 'rely' on him and then he left me, don't be so sure that ANY man you choose to be with, will not do the same or similar to you one day if it suits him hun.
My FOB and I have been sort of split up now for 5 months (dumped me because he categorically did not want children) I kept my babba (due in 5 weeks time) and I just thought the pain of not being together/not being a family would go away but it hasn't yet. We have been talking / texting on and off for the past two months and it just didnt go anywhere. We met up two weeks ago and the spark was still there but he looked tired, pale and stressed (job,life,etc) and we made out for a bit, which I should not have done as it made me feel a bit weak again, like I was taking him back despite everything.He didnt organise to see me again either. He is so wrapped up in himself its unreal. Today I nearly lost the plot, on his facebook page he posts to a woman (that um, sort of looks like his friends Mother?) that his friend would freak if he knew they met up and that 'dinner was nice hey '-I took that as meaning they went on a date!! I was inconsolable and after nearly two weeks of not contacting him, I asked him if he was seeing someone new. Of course he denied it and said no he absolutely wasn't and that he was moving abroad as planned and he couldnt handle the stress of dating anyway?? of course it could be entirely innocent but he is saying things now like he needs time alone, away, he doesnt know about anything anymore, people in general are upsetting him and I got what I wanted didn't I!
Why, oh why do I still love such a tool?. I could beg on my hands and knees for him to come back and support his unborn child and I think he would give me a oneliner about how he has no life or his life is shit. I genuinely also think that if I was in hospital for an emergency right now, the man would do nothing. and yet two weeks ago he sent me this poem?? go figure. How to make me suffer
The life that I have
Is all that I have
And the life that I have
Is yours.
The love that I have
Of the life that I have
Is yours and yours and yours.
A sleep I shall have
A rest I shall have
Yet death will be but a pause.
For the peace of my years
In the long green grass
Will be yours and yours and yours.
I also had a woman in work today question me about why my man had left me and what a horrible person he was (I agreed until she got snobby) She said 'well I am so glad I have a supportive hubby and that I can rely on him for everything, he even drove 20 miles across town when I was pregnant to get my favourite ice cream' I just glared at her and said 'well, that's nice, I also thought my boyfriend was 'supportive' and I could 'rely' on him and then he left me, don't be so sure that ANY man you choose to be with, will not do the same or similar to you one day if it suits him hun.