y wantin a baby so badd....hurts?!

[gonnagetabump]

Just like the title says it .... I want a baby so bad it feels like its breaking my heart over and over. It just makes me so darn sadd. Lik I almost feel my heart breaking physically for real. How is it possible .... I'm just so terrified in it taking much longer......I don't know how to deal. And idk if I should just throw in the towel and not plan anymore because of the way I am feeling......I'm so sad. I probably ovulated today. Idk why all of a sudden my positivity is out the window I think its honestly because....I always think I'm pregnant during the tww....this month I refuse it .... I refuse ...to believe it. I just feel so sadd

 

[Lirpa11]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down how long have you been trying? Have you spoken to a doctor yet?

 

[Lirpa11]

I know how you feel frustrated wise. I told DH I wanted to TTC in August. He said ok let's give it a try! Then a few weeks later he got cold feet and said no he wanted some toys done up before a baby (old cars n stuff). So I said well ok get ok with it and get me done as I wanna TTC in the new year.

So next DH says oh never mind about that I now wanna do another big overseas holiday in June. Then we can TTC so I was like well that's pushing it again but... I guess.

The more I thought about it though I didn't want to go. Firstly it would cost over $15k which could be better spent on our house. Secondly waiting till then means no baby for two years.

I tried talking to DH but it didn't work until I got so frustrated and resentful I just didn't want to discus the topic at all.

Finally we have agreed to finish off our house and TTC now which is good.