I want to do it again, now that I feel I 'know how' to lol I want to do it all again but do it MY way, I want to do it just as well as last time but no pethidine this time! I want to prove to myself, it really is that easy... hahaha you probably all think I'm mad, but the only reason I had pethidine in the first place was that I panicked because I wasn't sure if I was in labour - it made the contractions ten times harder and more painful. I don't want to do it drug-free because I disagree with drug use in labour or anything, I want to prove to
myself that I am in control of my labour. I found it so easy once I realised what was happening; I was in LABOUR and every contraction brought my baby closer to me! I was finally going to meet my baby! I loved the contractions after that, and worked with them instead of against them.
The other thing that I really want though, is that feeling just after you've given birth, and that realisation that hits you; "I did it! I'm a mummy! LOOK at my beautiful baby! I made that!"

I loved this so much, but most of all, I loved the feeling that follows birth, that almost-high feeling, the adrenaline rush, the sudden rush of love and excitement that I felt... the ecstasy, the euphoria... It's exhilarating. I'd do it again in a heartbeat!
I would love to do it all right now, but I do want the pregnancy first... because it's like the climax of the whole 9 months. lol I loved being pregnant... I miss it all!