Hi all, never had I wish to post in this part of the forum but sadly, this had became a fact.
I was 20th weeks and on 070712, I went for my normal routine gynae check up and everything was fine and gynae confirmed the gender of my baby, a girl.. Me and my hubby were over the moon. On 120712 we were scheduled on a detail scan check at the hospital for the organs and growth. Where we were informed that growth and organs of our girl is perfect, just that there wasn't a heartbeat. We were both shocked. How could that had happened? We just see her few days ago, moving with a strong heartbeat. How could that happened in just a few days? From heaven to hell? Just the previous day I was telling my friends how thankful I am for god had given to me so far. I was married for 3 years but only started to TTC, and conceived after 3-4 months. We were really thankful, but why did god decide to take everything back from us after he had given us a gift that we both treasure so much?
We went for 2 more ultrasound and confirmed that there wasn't a heartbeat. My gynae asked me if anything happened during that 2 days because right after my routine scan I still feel movements. So it could happened in these 1-2 days. He asked if i had felt down, or sick or bleed.. Nope nothing happened.. He was puzzled too and tell me he cannot find a reason. We both can't accept this 'reason' that there's no reason. He checked my report, my previous scans and blood test, he said everything is fine with me and baby. Even said baby was growing well for 20 weeks.. And how can that happen?
I was hospitalised and induce the following day. Process was short and I did not went to the surgery room, when i was given the pills, i went to the toilet thinking it was diarrohea. But everything just came out at the moment. I thank my baby for making this horrible process short and bearable for me. She's sucha sweet and considerate angel
Right now I am back to work, my co workers are very considerate and nice. But some gave me weird stares as I came back with a flat tummy.. It's a hard process.. My hubby had been very strong and positive for me, supporting me. I guess I would tide through this. Be strong and hope for a rainbow baby soon.
I miss my girl, so so much...
I was 20th weeks and on 070712, I went for my normal routine gynae check up and everything was fine and gynae confirmed the gender of my baby, a girl.. Me and my hubby were over the moon. On 120712 we were scheduled on a detail scan check at the hospital for the organs and growth. Where we were informed that growth and organs of our girl is perfect, just that there wasn't a heartbeat. We were both shocked. How could that had happened? We just see her few days ago, moving with a strong heartbeat. How could that happened in just a few days? From heaven to hell? Just the previous day I was telling my friends how thankful I am for god had given to me so far. I was married for 3 years but only started to TTC, and conceived after 3-4 months. We were really thankful, but why did god decide to take everything back from us after he had given us a gift that we both treasure so much?
We went for 2 more ultrasound and confirmed that there wasn't a heartbeat. My gynae asked me if anything happened during that 2 days because right after my routine scan I still feel movements. So it could happened in these 1-2 days. He asked if i had felt down, or sick or bleed.. Nope nothing happened.. He was puzzled too and tell me he cannot find a reason. We both can't accept this 'reason' that there's no reason. He checked my report, my previous scans and blood test, he said everything is fine with me and baby. Even said baby was growing well for 20 weeks.. And how can that happen?
I was hospitalised and induce the following day. Process was short and I did not went to the surgery room, when i was given the pills, i went to the toilet thinking it was diarrohea. But everything just came out at the moment. I thank my baby for making this horrible process short and bearable for me. She's sucha sweet and considerate angel
Right now I am back to work, my co workers are very considerate and nice. But some gave me weird stares as I came back with a flat tummy.. It's a hard process.. My hubby had been very strong and positive for me, supporting me. I guess I would tide through this. Be strong and hope for a rainbow baby soon.
I miss my girl, so so much...