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Lost7
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Okay, so technically I'm nearly 11 weeks. I have by about 2 weeks gone past the latest I've ever MC'd (8+5)
I am still worrying and still panicking. I've had like 5 scans (at least now) and generally feeling like rubbish. Every single niggle, every single cramp and I feel that's it - babies gone. Another one.
For people who don't know me, when I watermark my photos I write 'Lost9' and I dread having to write Lost10. I joined this forum having only Lost7!
The worst MC I had was last year, I got this
only days before his anniversary of and I am due only days before his E.D.D.
*I call him a him because of my Mothers intuition. I just had a very strong feeling he was a little boy, I named him Jake. I made candles for him, made him a special teddy bear and a bracelet.*
I also had to deal with very insensitive people last year, telling me I'd 'only' had a Chemical because I never saw my baby. I don't and didn't need to see my baby to know he's there. Pregnancy tests (Visible lines) and Quantitive Beta Blood Tests confirmed the pregnancy. I just had extremely low progesterone (Thankfully no problems this time around, so far) and I lost him eventually.
How can I stop worrying like this? It's kind of ruining the pregnancy. Every single day I wake up wondering if I am going to MC today. I wore pads every day until 8 weeks, then had brown CM in my pants and wore them then until 9w+3d. I'm scared and I until baby is in my arms I have no idea how to rectify this. I know stressing and worrying only increases the chances of MC, but this is something I've been through way too many times.
I went to The Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic October 2015, 2 days before Jakes' E.D.D and they did a series of tests, It came back positive for Lupus Anticoagulant. I feel relieved but also this adds even more stress to this pregnancy. I have closure as to why I've Lost9 but that doesn't reassure me I won't be Lost10.
Does this all make sense?
I am still worrying and still panicking. I've had like 5 scans (at least now) and generally feeling like rubbish. Every single niggle, every single cramp and I feel that's it - babies gone. Another one.
For people who don't know me, when I watermark my photos I write 'Lost9' and I dread having to write Lost10. I joined this forum having only Lost7!
The worst MC I had was last year, I got this
only days before his anniversary of and I am due only days before his E.D.D. *I call him a him because of my Mothers intuition. I just had a very strong feeling he was a little boy, I named him Jake. I made candles for him, made him a special teddy bear and a bracelet.*
I also had to deal with very insensitive people last year, telling me I'd 'only' had a Chemical because I never saw my baby. I don't and didn't need to see my baby to know he's there. Pregnancy tests (Visible lines) and Quantitive Beta Blood Tests confirmed the pregnancy. I just had extremely low progesterone (Thankfully no problems this time around, so far) and I lost him eventually.
How can I stop worrying like this? It's kind of ruining the pregnancy. Every single day I wake up wondering if I am going to MC today. I wore pads every day until 8 weeks, then had brown CM in my pants and wore them then until 9w+3d. I'm scared and I until baby is in my arms I have no idea how to rectify this. I know stressing and worrying only increases the chances of MC, but this is something I've been through way too many times.
I went to The Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic October 2015, 2 days before Jakes' E.D.D and they did a series of tests, It came back positive for Lupus Anticoagulant. I feel relieved but also this adds even more stress to this pregnancy. I have closure as to why I've Lost9 but that doesn't reassure me I won't be Lost10.
Does this all make sense?
