1st visit since August 2012 - a little nervous

[Miss Mitch]

Well, hello to those of you taking the time to read this

As the title says, I haven't logged on to this site since August 2012 - The site was amazing for me, but I lost my baby at almost 22 weeks in January 2012, after having a Crohn's disease flare up (didn't know I had it at the time, was diagnosed a few months later) and I think I became slightly 'obsessed' (in a non stalker or weird way) with finding threads or people on here that had been through similar to me or could reassure me.

I'm a little while down the line now, in a much happier place, and I am about to start TTC again - I look forward to getting to know you all and your journey's so far, and would love to hear from you with your background etc, even if its just a happy one!

xx

 

[Bevziibubble]

Hi and welcome back to BnB!

 

[Miss Mitch]

Hello, and thank you! xx

 

[noodles13]

Hello sorry for your loss
It's my first time back since 2013
I forgot how much I loved chatting on b&b x

 

[Miss Mitch]

Hello sorry for your loss
It's my first time back since 2013
I forgot how much I loved chatting on b&b x

Hi Noodles
Thank you - i'm a hell of a lot more positive about it now, so I feel ready to talk babies again. Although that doesn't stop the worrying. It is a great place to come and meet and talk to people xx

 

[noodles13]

Absolutely
How are you getting on tcc? Xx

 

[Miss Mitch]

AF is here at the moment, and we would have been starting from Monday with ttc, however, I had a docs apt tomorrow (Friday) to discuss my ttc with a doc, getting my 5mg prescription for folic acid and discussing whether I can take that and pregnacare, should I be taking anything else (with Crohn's I don't know whether an extra vitamin/supplement may be beneficial etc) and also I had antibodies in my blood after my loss, but I don't know if that was because I was rhesus negative etc....so Many Questions!! lol. Are you ttc? xx

 

[Miss Mitch]

AF is here at the moment, and we would have been starting from Monday with ttc, however, I had a docs apt tomorrow (Friday) to discuss my ttc with a doc, getting my 5mg prescription for folic acid and discussing whether I can take that and pregnacare, should I be taking anything else (with Crohn's I don't know whether an extra vitamin/supplement may be beneficial etc) and also I had antibodies in my blood after my loss, but I don't know if that was because I was rhesus negative etc....so Many Questions!! lol. Are you ttc? xx

What I should have finished with was....so with all of that, my apt has now been moved to Monday, so I don't know whether to hold off til the next cycle or just go for it?! xx

 

[noodles13]

Just go for it what is there to loose
Only possibly gain
We are sort of tcc
I haven't got a supportive family when it comes to how many children I have
But I've always wanted a big family
They are never happy they just belittle and shout at me
I've got anxiety makes me shake some days it's awful xx

 

[Miss Mitch]

Just go for it what is there to loose
Only possibly gain
We are sort of tcc
I haven't got a supportive family when it comes to how many children I have
But I've always wanted a big family
They are never happy they just belittle and shout at me
I've got anxiety makes me shake some days it's awful xx

I know, I just need to stop worrying! Easier said than done though.
Oh noodles you poor thing, that's awful! They shouldn't be belittling or shouting at you - no one should! xx

 

[noodles13]

Yeah don't worry I know exactly how hard it is you can't just switch worrying off
Impossible
I feel like I want to move far away so I can just live how I want
It's another thing people say... its your life do what you want
But its ingrained from a child
And it's also embarrassing to be scared of your parents at 30 years old

 

[Miss Mitch]

Yeah don't worry I know exactly how hard it is you can't just switch worrying off
Impossible
I feel like I want to move far away so I can just live how I want
It's another thing people say... its your life do what you want
But its ingrained from a child
And it's also embarrassing to be scared of your parents at 30 years old

Don't be embarrassed - like you say, if it's ingrained on you from a child, then it stays with you as an adult. Would you actually move away? Xx

 

[noodles13]

I wouldn't move the children away from their lives because of my cowardice
One day I am going to have to grow some balls and stick up for myself

 

[Miss Mitch]

I'm sure it will happen one day when you are ready, it's hard to do it to family so don't be too hard on your self xx

 

[noodles13]

Absolutely
It makes it so much harder because it makes you feel disloyal

How are you getting on tcc this cycle?

 

[Miss Mitch]

Absolutely
It makes it so much harder because it makes you feel disloyal

How are you getting on tcc this cycle?

Well I've just come to the end of my AF today, so will be ttc from now really! Unless I get told otherwise on Monday, which I shouldn't do! You?

 

[noodles13]

It's ov day today
I always keep checking of CP and cm
I wasn't sure if things would go back to norm straight away but it seems it has as it was a very early chemical
It was a first for me so I didn't know what to expect

 

[Miss Mitch]

I don't really know how to track anything - i'm just going to wing it at first! if no luck then I will get more in to keeping track of things etc

 

[noodles13]

I just check for ewcm I read somewhere it means you're fertile lol

 

[Miss Mitch]

What is EWCM?? i'm a dunce at these terms lol