2014 April Rainbows

[Karinama98]

Hi all....

I'm doing a quick check in. Glad to know everyone's GTT tests have come back fine - mine's this Friday. Looking forward to my appointment though for other reasons.

For the last 1.5 weeks I have been dealing with insomnia issues (not associated with my pregnancy as everyone on Facebook has decided to tell me it's related to).

My mother has been placed in in-home hospice care due to her cancer/health. It has been an extremely hard week of emotions for me knowing my mother will be leaving us soon. We were hoping she would have held on until LO is born, but apparently God has other plans.

Being there this last weekend, I was hoping I would be able to show her the baby furniture we have for her that she and my other sisters bought for us, but she had her eyes closed the entire time. I also wanted her to see how big my stomach was, and was unable to even have her feel it because she has no strength and is in constant pain.

My baby shower is planned for Feb. 9th, and DH and I talked to my in-laws who are throwing it for us about that we may need to postpone it depending on things. At this point, she may pass away any day or in a few weeks.

So other than the insomnia, I'm going to be talking to my OB about what I can do in relation to handling the stress of grieving. Every time I start crying/wailing our little girl starts kicking and is definitely letting me know she's there and knows her momma is going through an extremely hard time. I just don't want my stress to affect her in any way.

What hurts the most is that neither of my parents will be around for when my first child is born. It was the one thing they both were hoping to experience before they left/leave this world. But I know my dad in Heaven probably already knows who this LO is and is already proud.

 

[Lisa85]

My goodness Karina. Im so sorry you are going through this.
I hope the OB can offer some suggestions to keep your stress levels down through this very tough time.

Im sure they will both be looking down on you and will be with you every step of the way.

 

[vietmamsie]

Karina - I can't even imagine how hard this time must be for you and your family. Sending you many positive thoughts... you will make it through this difficult time, and while it will hurt, you will come out the other end stronger for what you have been through. However, there is light at the end f the tunnel.... despite all this, you will end up with your baby girl in the end, and she will help you heal.

 

[Kasey84]

Sending big hugs Karina! I'm so sorry your going through this and can't imagine how hard it must be!

I hope your OB can offer some helpful advice. I do believe that our bodies find a way to cope with the hardships that life sometimes throws our way during a pregnancy and keep the baby protected. I know my own mom lost her first husband suddenly when she was pregnant with my sister and there was no negative effects on the pregnancy/baby.

I also believe that those we love and lose are always with us. I think your mom and dad will be with you every step of the way as you bring your little girl into this world and raise her up

 

[Karinama98]

Thank you guys for the support. I've been in talks with my one sister about going up to visit again this weekend. We're both probably going to take a half day on Friday and come back Monday. I'm already looking into rescheduling our labor/delivery class for later in February or early March since DH and I feel she will have passed by then.

The other thing with the stress is that I'm the main heir to the entire estate, and for me that's a really hard thing to handle right now because I won't be able to take care of all the administrative/legal/etc things at this time since it's 4.5 hours away from here, and I want to conserve my PTO here at work for when Amber's born. Plus I'm trying to handle this on a neutral basis since none of my siblings were named in the will, which to me doesn't make any sense. Trying to deal with siblings with hurt feelings and this all has been a challenge in itself.

And Kasey, thank you for letting me know of your mom's situation with your sister. I can only imagine how hard that had to be for her for multiple reasons.

 

[morganwhite7]

Karinama- I can't imagine how that feels, but I also believe our LO's are there to console us in these difficult times! Sometimes I swear I'm just going to lose it, feeling so awful, and then she gives me a quick jab as if to let me know "Mom don't feel bad, I'm right here! You've got me!" Our little miracles will be the doors that open while others close.. and that is okay. I'm so sorry you have to go through this while pregnant, the hormones make things so much harder. Sending love!

AFM- Ladies slowly creeping closer to 3rd trimester, and that is crazy to me! 92 days until c/s date or induction and I am really getting anxious!!! (Bumpdates at 24 & 25 then 26 weeks on the right!)

 

[Karinama98]

Lisa - finally got to look at your nursery pictures. Very pretty. And I liked your idea of the thin fabric that is hanging above the crib. I've seen that in other pictures and now I'm thinking I might do something like that myself.

Morgan - Yeah, she definitely reminds me that it's okay to be emotional and that she's there to help me get through it. Yesterday in the car ride into work after my car stalled and I had an emotional breakdown I kept crying and telling her that she is definitely a gift from God to help us with what is going on right now. And nice progression pictures. I know for me weeks 25 to 27 had no difference in how I looked. But now I think I'm starting to get more round.

Oh, and last night I decided to finally take a bath to try to relax my stressed out upper back muscles. Really don't like that my stomach is well above the water now so I have to keep a wash cloth on it in order to stay warm - otherwise gets so cold. But it was definitely fun to see LO moving though. Looked like my stomach was a bouncy ball with how much it was jumping.

 

[IcePrincess]

Lisa- Both my high risk and regular OBs have said they think a naturally delivery will be fine (if he's head down and all conditions are right), so that's what I'm hoping for. I'm trying to not get too attached to one way, since all that matters in the end is that he and I are both healthy.

I'm getting more attached to wanting to breastfeed and cloth diaper, I really hope that both work for us.

How do you ladies feel about vaccines? My friend gave me the Dr. Sears book on vaccine information and alternative schedules to getting several shots at once. I want him protected, but I don't want to overwhelm his little system with too much at once. I'm not a doctor though, so I'm nervous to make any decisions that could differ from the recommended schedule.

I'm a Pharmacist... You won't overwhelm his system. I recommend getting them as per the vaccine schedule where you live. Way better to get protection the risk future exposure to preventable diseases.

 

[Brieanna]

I am so sorry for what you are going through right now Karina.

 

[Karinama98]

My mother passed away Wednesday evening. With that my husband and I dropped everything going on in our lives to drive 4.5 hours north to be with my family. My GTT appointment is now rescheduled for Wednesday.

It feels so weird and extremely saddening that she's gone now. But I know she met our LO in Heaven, and I'm hoping to be able to look into our future daughter's eyes and see my mom looking back at us.

 

[morganwhite7]

^im so sorry karina

I can't imagine how that feels.. Have you thought about maybe incorporating her name?

 

[KLMenke]

So sorry for your loss! ! From experience, I can tell you that it does get better. You have the best guardian angel now! So sorry you have to go through this, especially while pregnant. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

 

[IcePrincess]

Karina I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure all of us ladies are thinking of you and I'm sending thoughts and prayers out to you and your family from afar.

 

[Kasey84]

Karina- I'm so very sorry for your loss. I'm thinking of you and your family and hoping that you have all the support you need to make it through this difficult time.

We are all here if you need to talk

 

[hope4rainbow]

I am so sorry to hear this news, Karina. Your little girl will help you heal and be the best medicine to help ease the pain.

 

[Lisa85]

Sending love and hugs your way Karina
She can take care of your LO in heaven and watch over you and your family. She will always be with you.

 

[Lindsay109]

Karina, I am so sorry to hear about your mother I hope you and your family are being well supported through this difficult time. You and your little one are going to have a wonderful guardian angel. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

 

[vietmamsie]

Karina - I am so sorry for your loss

 

[ebonymama]

hey ladies,
wow lots have been happening on here since my last post...

firstly, hugz to karina and sorry about your mom....she is in a better place and will take care of you and lil loo loo and family....

to the rest of you who had baby showers and GTT tests
..so please to hear that yall are happy with the outcomes...

i have manage to get my GTT results as well and everything looks great...
i have another apt on thursday so we will c how that goes....hopefully everything should be good

having lots of movements especially at nights and also plenty heartburn....
hoping to have another ultrasound in about two weeks...at that point i will be about 31 weeks...is that too early for head to be down??

well let me stop talking to now...
yall keep good....karina everything will be fine deary....

to everyone

 

[Lisa85]

Ebony, my LO's head was down at my appointment last week. Not right down in my pelvis but still down.

AFM - I have my scan next Thursday to see if my placenta has moved. Im anxious to find out.
Having a bit of pain at the moment to. Rolling over in bed seem to cause pain in my tummy. Anyone else experiencing this?