21 weeks pg .. now starting to get panic attacks

[mimmymoo]

i have had several mc over the last 3 years ranging from 5 -11 weeks plus a stillbirth at 20 weeks - all unexplained
i am now 21 weeks pg with a baby boy and the further the pregnancy progresses the more anxious i get, to the point where i had a panic attack yesturday i thought i couldnt feel baby move, moved in the end although only for a short time
i also worry about every little scare story i read or see on the internet .. just start obsessing that its going to happen to me - and even panic about the birth, as i had quite a long traumatic birth with my daughter 11 yrs ago
i just dont know how im going to cope with the next 19 or so weeks, its been such a rollercoaster so far with early bleeds, me having a bad fall etc .. doesnt matter how much people try and reassure me, i just worry the whole time - just wish i could be put to sleep now and woken up when baby has safely arrived !
how oh how am i going to cope for the next 19 + weeks?

 

[Las78]

hun, I've been there too. I found each little milestone I was a little less anxious although frequently still had freak out days. It's such a shame that all joys of pregnancy are gone after suffering a loss, just try and keep focused on the little milestones, just think - viability in 3 weeks, third tri a couple of weeks after that.

I found keeping myself busy and not thinking about the preg too much helped as well, not easy but if I was busy it kept my mind on other things.