3+ years and loosing hope...

[furry_bandico]

So I got my first real bfp a few days ago... thought it was an evap at first but there is still a line on the test after 2 days and it is pink so now I'm thinking it was a bfp.

so I went out to buy one of the gold plastic eggs at walmart so I could hide it in DH's Easter basket.

I got home and I was in pain but I figured that since it was my AF due date that some cramping was to be expected... well pain turned in to full blown AF that afternoon. so now I'm experiencing a chemical pregnancy.

I'm turning 30 we are going on year 4, DH has low count and I'm really getting down. and on top of that my breasts are still swollen and tender and I developed nausea witch make no sense at all!

Please tell me I'm not crazy... DH thinks I am, he doesn't know that I got a bfp he just thinks I'm having super pms or something.

 

[beebaby]

I know what you are going threw..I have been TTC for what seems like forever 4+ years with the same guy..who has a 5 year old..and one that I cant bring myself to talkabout...anyway..its nerve racking..a few years back we were preventing but wasnt trying but something happend..and it got bad so I know i m/c..but then another year got 3 faint positives different tests..and later nothing so it is hard..we just have to keep our heads up and move forward and continue trying..I know people who have taken tests that were BFN and later checked and was positive..some turned out they were real BFP and others were still BFN.. But you're not alone =] Good luck to you though..wish you the best on your journey.

 

[keri 01]

That must be awful finally getting ur Bfp then it's a chemical. Don't give up. We've been ttc for 4 years.

 

[mod19]

I know its easy to get down. I myself have had a lot of mixed emotions the past few days. Sometimes I think about it and just get down thinking it'll never happen, but others I'm all "its going to happen again soon!". When I cry dh hugs me and says it'll happen...but lately I've been crying strictly to grieve the loss of lo.

I don't temp or use ov sticks...got over that about two and a half years ago. If its going to happen it'll happen, right?

 

[ProfWife]

I hate to ask this, but has it been as heavy as your normal AF or lighter? If it's weird (lighter, shorter, etc.), I'd test again and/or call your doctor.

 

[furry_bandico]

I went to the dr. she took bloods and had me take a test there. it was a bfn. she wants me to come back next week to have more bloods done (she wants bloods for this whole cycle, each weeks of it.)

she feels it was a chemical. but she wants me to have a u/s done next week and she wants me so start temping again and use opks.

The lady i work with, her husband runs an online health store and she is going to give me 2 boxes of 50 opks and 2 boxes of 25 hpt's for $10.00 the next day i work. I couldn't be happier!

 

[ProfWife]

That is an awesome price. Glad friends and your doc are taking good care of you.

 

[furry_bandico]

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Got even better news... my co worker came by and her husband said I could have all this. only catch is they are new products and they need testing so I'm going to put them through the ringer this cycle. Then i will give him my thoughts on them.
EEEEEE!!!! OMG I cant wait till I can start testing again... all loss of hope is gone!
I'm not very religious but Thank you God for this! I know it is silly but this really brougt my hopes back up

Baby dust for everyone!!!!

 

[mod19]

That's awesome!