I'm so sorry.
I went through 3 miscarriages. 2 of them were second trimester miscarriages (between 17 and 18 week both times) and happened in under a year and it's incredibly painful.
Life is not fair. It's not right that our children were taken away from us before we've had a chance to even say hello. Whoever said it's fine after you hear the heartbeat, it's not. I heard my baby's heartbeat, and even saw the baby move during my last pregnancy, and yet I'm here. Childless.
Hell hath no fury like a Mother ripped away from her child. We can say "Oh, it just wasn't meant to happen." Or "It must've happened for a reason."
But the fact of the matter: That doesn't help at all. This is a difficult thing to go through, one that makes many people question whether or not they could handle it again. But Humans are peculiar. Our resistance, defiance and outright stubbornness can pull us through many, many things.
I'm sorry to hear that you suffer from PCOS. I can't imagine going through that, but there's is still hope. Reach out and look for support, wherever you may find it. sometimes it's hard getting out of bed in mornings, wondering "Where do I even go from here?". I felt so empty, and lonely, but the one person who matters most to me told me something very important.
There is nowhere to go except Forward.
No one expects you to make it through leaping and bounding, or running. Moving forward can be one excruciating step at a time, but you WILL move forward when you're ready. And when that time comes, you have to let yourself move on.
Remember, moving on does NOT mean you have to forget.
You are a woman. You are beautiful, you are powerful, and you can survive this.
Never give up on creating life. There's a reason they call the process a "Miracle".