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[BrandysBabies]

I knoe exactly how you feel Andie! My DH was and still is georgous. When we first met I had just lost 120lbs but still felt like a big girl in my mind. I couldnt understand why he would want to be with me. He got hit on and still does every time we went out. They will openly flirt with him in front of me. And then I gained my weight back, which made me even more insecure. We went through a time where he was having online conversations with women, and I considered it mentally cheating. Which in turn constantly made me wonder if he was doing it in real life too. It got to a point where I wondered what he was doing even when he would just run up to the gas station. It got way out of control to a point where we sat down and had a serious talk about whether we should even be together. I couldnt trust him,and no matter what he tried he couldnt convience me to trust again. I had to make a decision to let it all go or get out. I am so happy that I made the right decision because we are closer now than we have ever been. I still get a bout of it every once in a while, even though it was 2yrs ago. Every once in awhile I will check his online account and such just for my piece of mind. And now I feel guilty when I do it. He is an amazing husband and father now. He has really worked hard to regain my trust and to show me that he is in this relationship for life.

Wow, okay! Didnt mean to post all of that! Hahaha!

 

[MommyV]

Starlit- I completely understand why u feel so sad. we are also a one income family with 2children so can understand money being tight. I hope that u are able to have a wonderful Christmas with DH and his family.

 

[andella95]

Brandy...you know what? Our guys love us. They really truly do. Your man is hot! And the two of you together = perfect!

 

[Mustang_Love]

Starlit- r u going to be able to visit family around Christmas time this year? Could they pos visit u? I can only imagine how hard it is because all of our family lives near and we are all very close. Hugs and I hope that u have a wonderful and Blessed Christmas.

No, my family is in British Columbia, Canada - they are a one-income family with 8 kids at home. And dH and I live in Honolulu, Hawaii - 2000 miles away and we're also a one-income family.
Christmas last year was super-expensive for us and for my family, since I got married and my in-laws came up from Hawaii to stay for 5 days over the wedding and Christmas.
I will hopefully get to see them in the New Year, after dH and I have moved to a bigger place.
It's been over 11 months since I've seen my family.

I think it's more to do with the fact that it's all about family isn't it? and I guess it just reminds me of what I should have if that makes sense?

Exactly. Christmas with my family is full of all the traditions and things that I grew up with, it's what my subconcious expects.
Also, I miss them all.

However I am better today Having a relaxing Sunday with dH.

Glad you're having a better day hun!!

 

[StarlitHome]

Glad you're having a better day hun!!

Thanks today ended up being awesome, actually

Starlit- I completely understand why u feel so sad. we are also a one income family with 2children so can understand money being tight. I hope that u are able to have a wonderful Christmas with DH and his family.

Thanks hon Yeah, I think Christmas will turn out great. And we're going to start saving for a trip North in the New Year Then I'll get to see my family! I know that my sisters are saving for a trip here too

 

[Mzitalian25]

Hey ladies! Just checking in with yall. I read through the last 4 pages and seems like the spirits went from low to improving. I hope everyone can wiggle the stress they have in life out so we can all hold our heads high! I know easier said than done.
I joined the site littlespy told us about called, myfitnesspal.com its an AMAZING site and you should really join. Add me when you so I have the same user name

AFM in the T2C department, still no sign of AF and after 2 positive OPK's they went negative which is a great sign. I will test next Sunday if no AF shows yet.

Brandi when are you testing? Sorry to anyone AF got this month, and good luck for next month

 

[Vrainoire]

hey ladies i've been gone for a while..i've just been waiting for AF to show on her own since I really don't want to do birth control..but looks like i'll have to go back to the DR.

 

[twinkle1975]

Hey all, haven't posted in a really long while as nothing is going on here so nothing to report! Am full of a cold & feeling sorry for myself today - AF will be here in a couple of days too - at least I'm know I'm not ovulating so no getting my hopes up!
I'm sorry you've all been low recently & hope you're starting to feel a bit better soon xxx

 

[BrandysBabies]

No signs of AF at all!!! Woohoo! My ankles are so skinny today, lol. Swollen ankles are my first sign of AF. No cramping or spotting either! I am due tomorrow or Wed. I will buy a FRER tomorrow, but not sure if I will use it until Wed. Hope everyone is having a wonderful, fertile day!

 

[LaraJJ]

Hey all,

Remember me?! I haven't been around for a while as been on a break TTC due to wanting to get to SILs wedding abroad next year.

But.........

I think I may have experienced Implantation Bleeding at 7dpo!!!!!!! It was a big glob of dark pinkish tinged CM (sorry tmi!!!). This is totally not normal for me mid-cycle. I've not been symptom spotting as we are obviously not trying, but now I'm wondering if maybe I've miscalculated my dates etc this month - woops!!!

Has anyone else ever experienced this? I am due on Friday, so guess I'll soon find out!

Good luck to everyone - esp Brandy, not long till you can test

Lara xx

 

[MommyV]

Hi Ladies,

Brandi- gl your symptoms sound very promising I hope that u get that bfp very soon.

Starlit- I'm glad things r looking up for u. Extended family is great but I know that for me home is where my dh is. That great that u and your sisters r saving up for a visit maybe when u do see them you'll be pg and can give then the good new in person

mzitalian- I just recently joined myfitnesspal too I'll have to look u up and friend u on there and also littlespy

asfm- nothing too exciting af is due Sat and as long as temp r up and she's not here I'll be testing on Sat

 

[StarlitHome]

Starlit- I'm glad things r looking up for u. Extended family is great but I know that for me home is where my dh is. That great that u and your sisters r saving up for a visit maybe when u do see them you'll be pg and can give then the good new in person

Haha, well, my family is finding out almost as soon as we know for sure They know we're trying and are super-excited for us
It's dH's family that we'll be surprising... They have no idea that we're trying and would try to deter us from it if they did.

Yes, home is where dH is - which is why I was willing to move 2000 miles away from my friends and family, to a different country, to be with him.

AF is due on... Wednesday? No wait. Tomorrow.
Huh.

Anyway, this cycle was a total wash as far as DTD near ovulation, so I'm just waiting for it to end at this point.

And I woke up today with the possible beginnings of a cold

 

[MommyV]

I'm sure dh's family will be happy when they see the sweet little bundle. Babies have a way of melting people's hearts. We have definately had those cycles where we totally missed o but the good thing is there will be another cycle and another o and hopefully you'll get your bd in this time.

 

[StarlitHome]

I'm sure dh's family will be happy when they see the sweet little bundle. Babies have a way of melting people's hearts.

We're counting on it! We figure, since they'd try to talk us out of it we won't tell them till the talking-us-out-of-it stage is over, and the getting-excited-about-a-baby stage is here

Yep, another cycle is always there I had a low couple days just now, but today I've turned a corner and have regained my PMA Thanks everyone, you helped for sure

 

[sma1588]

i got my first pos. OPK today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we BD last night but will again tonight omg im so excited !!!!

 

[LittleSpy]

Fx & to all the ladies expecting soon.

I'm so glad MommyV & mzitalian joined myfitnesspal.com!

 

[EmmyReece]

hope everyone is good ...

I'm on a bit of a downer, I think I'm somewhere between 10 and 12 dpo and I've been using opks as hpts and they're not getting any darker from what I can see. There's still definite lines there, but nothing to get overly excited.

But me being the idiot I am, I've gone and got my hopes up because I don't normally get any lines at all when I do opks ...

 

[LaraJJ]

Congrats sma - that is great news, happy bding ;-)

Emmy - I don't really know alot about using opks and hpts, but why don't you try a hpt instead - at least then it may show something official?!!! Good luck hun

AFM - got a BFN today at 10-11dpo. I know it is still early so will re-test on Friday.

Baby dust to all xxx

 

[MommyV]

wohoo Shanna on the pos opk I guess the clomid is working. Hopefully you'll finally get that bfp you've been waiting for.

I'm glad that you're feeling more positive starlit!

Emmy opk's as hpt's don't work well it usually only goes pos long after a pos pregnancy test try to wait it out a day or two then use an hpt gl

Littlespy- I love the myfitnesspal I had previously been on spark people and it was so hard to log the food and I didn't really get too much support from the forums I have been tracking and I hope to make a permanent change and lose weight that I will never regain

asfm- I am 11dpo I plan on testing on Sat the day af is due. I've had for like the past 4days twinges/cramps on my left side sort of feels like ovulation pain which I don't anymore after having my second baby oh well if it is something then by Sat I will know for sure

 

[EmmyReece]

thanks guys ... I'm probably going to do a superdrug or frer test while we're down in London, trying not to get too hopeful as there hasn't been any change in the opks