wlovew
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So I couldn't help myself and I tested this morning, 6 days until AF is due, and I got a BFN 
I expected it but I couldn't help but hope for a BFP. I want to cry, why is this so hard!? I have become pregnant before by accident at a young age and my boyfriend at the time coaxed me into having an abortion, something I will forever regret. Especially now that I am TTC, I feel like maybe it will be Karma that I won't be able to Makes me feel so guilty all over again for doing that. What if 32 is just too old for me? What if the abortion ruined my uterus?? I know this is my first month trying, I need to chill out and take it a day at a time. I just want this so much, as I am certain ALL OF YOU do!!!!!!!!!! It is so hard to conceive with a donor!! It would be so much easier probably if I had a man that I was having sex with daily. Well, now that I'm not with men anymore that is impossible! lol.....funny but not funny at the same time. 
I expected it but I couldn't help but hope for a BFP. I want to cry, why is this so hard!? I have become pregnant before by accident at a young age and my boyfriend at the time coaxed me into having an abortion, something I will forever regret. Especially now that I am TTC, I feel like maybe it will be Karma that I won't be able to Makes me feel so guilty all over again for doing that. What if 32 is just too old for me? What if the abortion ruined my uterus?? I know this is my first month trying, I need to chill out and take it a day at a time. I just want this so much, as I am certain ALL OF YOU do!!!!!!!!!! It is so hard to conceive with a donor!! It would be so much easier probably if I had a man that I was having sex with daily. Well, now that I'm not with men anymore that is impossible! lol.....funny but not funny at the same time. 
