Thank you all for your condolences, kind words, hugs, and prayers it's a great comfort my partner has been amazing I can only describe our eyes as faulty sprinklers they just keep going off I've got lots of support and have made an appointment with my Cpn as I'm bi polar my mental health is a big worry to my family and so thought it best to see her sooner rather then later although I think that how I feel is perfectly rational considering but I really do sincerely hope and pray I'm the last tragedy and that you all have beautiful babies xxx