WinglessAngel
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Gosh it's been ages since I've been in the forum. I couldn't handle the stress and anxiety and depression. Hubby and I have been TTC for years. I've lost all my pregnancies since we started trying. This past year three friends have come up pregnant and one is still preggo currently. Hence my lack of activity. I am currently at 9 DPO though and I couldn't help but POS today. Of course it was negative, I will keep testing though. I'm actually really hoping for it this month as hubby and I BD'd plenty during the right time. Though this time I didn't feel any ovulation pains, BUT, symptoms galore and a few I don't normally get before AF so here's my list below.
Youngest cat has been like velcro, he never is with me. He's been sleeping with me every night now for the past week. He stays nearby or under foot most of the day.
Nausea to the point of dry heaves.
Everything tastes sweet (though possibly from a thyroid issue the retired doctor hubby is monitoring)
Cervix is low, soft and pointed towards the back, normally I'm rock hard and much higher up at this point in my cycle.
Nipples far darker with a pink tinge and the bumps are now flat, when they're normally prominent.
Boobs have a weird veining pattern that was prominent and is now a bit lighter but pretty identical on each side, if I have any during this time, it's normally just a few here or there and dark and definitely not in patches like they are now. VERY sore.
Asthma has been spiking in severity at night while sleeping for about a week now. The types of attacks are starting to wane but the way they're happening is really weird for me and the number of attacks a night when they first started was sky high. My asthma rarely ever does this while I sleep.
More lethargic than I typically am at this time in my cycle.
Less CM than usual at this point in my cycle but definitely creamy and not chunky like I normally am and zero smell.
A couple days ago I had 2 tiny miniscule dots when I wiped when I went to the bathroom (just looked really weird lol)
Mild cramping in the area about 2 inches below the belly button for the last couple of days.
Weepy twice in one day a couple days ago from feeling homesick. I am from South Korea and only spent the first two years of my life there so I'm super confused as to why I would feel such harsh homesickness when I've never had the opportunity to even go back, much less even ever been homesick, and I'm 37 now.
Vivid dreams!
That's my list so far, I know I'll have to wait and see. Even though I got a BFN this afternoon (I knew I would but had to POS anyway) If it does happen this month, this little bean will be my rainbow baby. I really feel like this is it finally... Desperate to read what others think! I don't have anyone to talk to about these things so I appreciate anyone reading and responding!
Youngest cat has been like velcro, he never is with me. He's been sleeping with me every night now for the past week. He stays nearby or under foot most of the day.
Nausea to the point of dry heaves.
Everything tastes sweet (though possibly from a thyroid issue the retired doctor hubby is monitoring)
Cervix is low, soft and pointed towards the back, normally I'm rock hard and much higher up at this point in my cycle.
Nipples far darker with a pink tinge and the bumps are now flat, when they're normally prominent.
Boobs have a weird veining pattern that was prominent and is now a bit lighter but pretty identical on each side, if I have any during this time, it's normally just a few here or there and dark and definitely not in patches like they are now. VERY sore.
Asthma has been spiking in severity at night while sleeping for about a week now. The types of attacks are starting to wane but the way they're happening is really weird for me and the number of attacks a night when they first started was sky high. My asthma rarely ever does this while I sleep.
More lethargic than I typically am at this time in my cycle.
Less CM than usual at this point in my cycle but definitely creamy and not chunky like I normally am and zero smell.
A couple days ago I had 2 tiny miniscule dots when I wiped when I went to the bathroom (just looked really weird lol)
Mild cramping in the area about 2 inches below the belly button for the last couple of days.
Weepy twice in one day a couple days ago from feeling homesick. I am from South Korea and only spent the first two years of my life there so I'm super confused as to why I would feel such harsh homesickness when I've never had the opportunity to even go back, much less even ever been homesick, and I'm 37 now.
Vivid dreams!
That's my list so far, I know I'll have to wait and see. Even though I got a BFN this afternoon (I knew I would but had to POS anyway) If it does happen this month, this little bean will be my rainbow baby. I really feel like this is it finally... Desperate to read what others think! I don't have anyone to talk to about these things so I appreciate anyone reading and responding!
So an update, cervix has moved up way high (middle finger length all the way to top of it, almost can't reach it), forward facing, closed and I think soft. CM has changed to milky white with a looser consistency. Having a wet feeling without any excess on panties. Montgomery tubercles have popped out around the nipples, cramps were very mild and seem to have stopped after a week. Temp has been raised (according to retired doctor hubby, he thought I had a bit of a fever last night). Waiting on baited breath for some HCG strip tests to arrive tomorrow (REALLY HOPING) or Wednesday. Oh and I'm currently, so far as I can tell, 10DPO 
I'm currently on CD 28, AF due tomorrow but no sign. Not quite sure when/if I ovulated but we BD'ed every other day from CD 7-20 so hopefully we caught an egg at some point! This is our first month TTC so I know its unlikely but I cant help but be anxious. I tested this morning and on the morning of CD 24 (couldn't wait) with FRER's and they were both BFNs. Feeling discouraged but not giving up hope!
it’s obviously not fun for anyone but in a weird way it does make me feel more normal, knowing others are going through a similar thing. Most of my friends got pregnant on the 1st/2nd month of trying. Good luck trytryagainn. I hope your wait is not too long!
