Periwinkle58
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I don't have anyone to talk to and give me no biased advice so I thought I'd join here, so hi everyone!
When I was 20 I went to donate my eggs. After the tests they told me I was not eligible due to an AMH of 0.60. I was told it'd be extremely hard for me to conceive and that I would have to try asap. Being so young I kinda just convinced myself I would never have kids and have planned my life as such so I wouldn't be disappointed in the future.
Well I am now 25, and after not taking birth control for a couple months, I ended up pregnant. I'm now 9 weeks and everything is perfect. Have heard the heartbeat and everything. My problem is with my life. I'm a full-time student who had just recently quit my job in order to find a better one. I've been with my bf for 8months (he is 40yo). Now, I have to pay for half of everything. He doesn't give me any extra. Even unemployed, in school and pregnant he won't even go grocery shopping! I had to ask my mom for money last week to go grocery shopping and he already ate most of the food.
He has a good job makes over 80k yet he NEVER HAS MONEY. I'm literally broke and am freaking out over the fact I'm having a kid with a child who doesn't want to grow up. He's only had 2 girlfriends in his life and it was only for a couple years. While he can be great he also has a horrible temper (today we got in a fight and he went to sleep in another room because I politely asked for him to lower the tv volume cuz I had a headache). Oh and I got yelled at and that I was "always acting like his mother".
I don't know what to do. I'm way more responsible than him even though he's much older and if I try to talk to him about anything I just get screamed at. I feel SO stuck. I need to graduate but I don't know how to handle a full time job, a kid, a dog, and school! It's stressing me out SO much. I wish he would help me and at the very least buy food so OUR baby doesn't starve. He's just so selfish, narcissistic and mean.
Any advice whatsoever? I feel like this is a miracle baby so I haven't even considered an alternative but I feel like pulling all my hair out and throwing him off a bridge! We literally fight every single day and even though he said he wants to marry me (even though I'd still have to pay for half of everything) I don't even want to go near him at the moment...
When I was 20 I went to donate my eggs. After the tests they told me I was not eligible due to an AMH of 0.60. I was told it'd be extremely hard for me to conceive and that I would have to try asap. Being so young I kinda just convinced myself I would never have kids and have planned my life as such so I wouldn't be disappointed in the future.
Well I am now 25, and after not taking birth control for a couple months, I ended up pregnant. I'm now 9 weeks and everything is perfect. Have heard the heartbeat and everything. My problem is with my life. I'm a full-time student who had just recently quit my job in order to find a better one. I've been with my bf for 8months (he is 40yo). Now, I have to pay for half of everything. He doesn't give me any extra. Even unemployed, in school and pregnant he won't even go grocery shopping! I had to ask my mom for money last week to go grocery shopping and he already ate most of the food.
He has a good job makes over 80k yet he NEVER HAS MONEY. I'm literally broke and am freaking out over the fact I'm having a kid with a child who doesn't want to grow up. He's only had 2 girlfriends in his life and it was only for a couple years. While he can be great he also has a horrible temper (today we got in a fight and he went to sleep in another room because I politely asked for him to lower the tv volume cuz I had a headache). Oh and I got yelled at and that I was "always acting like his mother".
I don't know what to do. I'm way more responsible than him even though he's much older and if I try to talk to him about anything I just get screamed at. I feel SO stuck. I need to graduate but I don't know how to handle a full time job, a kid, a dog, and school! It's stressing me out SO much. I wish he would help me and at the very least buy food so OUR baby doesn't starve. He's just so selfish, narcissistic and mean.
Any advice whatsoever? I feel like this is a miracle baby so I haven't even considered an alternative but I feel like pulling all my hair out and throwing him off a bridge! We literally fight every single day and even though he said he wants to marry me (even though I'd still have to pay for half of everything) I don't even want to go near him at the moment...