Bear
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So, we've been trying for about 7 months. Last month was my first cycle of Clomid and I got my hopes way up, only to be disappointed. I was symptom spotting, planning ahead, the whole nine yards -- I was shattered when showed up on her broom --
This month I just feel completely different than I have any of the months we've been trying. I'm just not excited about it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I still desperately want a baby with DH, I am just so exhausted from getting my hopes up and having them be let down every month, and I think I'm beginning to lose hope. I thought we could beat my infertility, and we still might, but it surely doesn't feel as though we will right now. I'm not doing any of the things I did last month, though, and I don't even have to try not to get my hopes up, because they're not.
Please tell me I'm not crazy. Are my feelings unfounded? I don't know how to get excited about it again. I'm just heartbroken and tired, I suppose.
This month I just feel completely different than I have any of the months we've been trying. I'm just not excited about it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I still desperately want a baby with DH, I am just so exhausted from getting my hopes up and having them be let down every month, and I think I'm beginning to lose hope. I thought we could beat my infertility, and we still might, but it surely doesn't feel as though we will right now. I'm not doing any of the things I did last month, though, and I don't even have to try not to get my hopes up, because they're not.
Please tell me I'm not crazy. Are my feelings unfounded? I don't know how to get excited about it again. I'm just heartbroken and tired, I suppose.