am i being bad?

[KaeRit21]

bubbas DNA donor's court case is tomorrow...am i being bad in hoping against hope they just lock him up??...i feel a bit guilty but i cant help but pray that just this once, he gets his come-uppance....does this make me a bad person?


ive been driving myself a bit crazy...as i know if he gets off with it, even though hes done NOTHING and provided nothing for baby, he'l attempt to swan in and play the doting dad. ie, try turn up at hosp, turn up at mine at xmas etc. i dont want him any where near us at all, but i know if he gets away with it, even though hes doing nothing to show any interest he'll suddenly turn up after bubs arrives.

sorry for the pointless rant, i just want tomorrow to have been and gone.
xxx

 

[purpledahlia]

aw, not bad to wish him to leave you alone, but if he is innocent then you know he prob shouldnt be locked up... despite being a shit! xx

 

[KaeRit21]

hes anything but innocent, if he gets away with what hes done i swaer il clobber the judge!

xxx

 

[sweetlullaby]

No it doesnt make you a bad person ....if he deserves to be locked up then locked up he should be!!

Don't clobber the judge though ....might not be a good idea lol

yeah i know what you mean i just know FOB is gonna just show up as he pleases when LO is born (wish he'd make up his mind either bugger off altogether or be involved!) and havnt even thought about xmas yet there is no way in hell he's coming near the house on xmas day. christmas is a hard time for us as a family due to my dad passing away etc and we spend christmas together as a relaxed quiet family day. I dont want him being there all day!!

tomorrow will be here before you know it!! xx

 

[purpledahlia]

oh well if he is guilty he should do the time!!!

fingers crossed xx

 

[teal]

I don't think it makes you a bad person for wanting to be left alone

If he's guilty hopefully he'll get punished rather than get away with it xx

 

[suzanne108]

If he does get locked up.....I think all the other idiot FOBs should go with him, its only fair!

(And you're not bad for thinking that!)

 

[McLovin]

what's he done?

 

[teal]

I hope you're getting on ok today

 

[xxannxx]

No, it def doesn't make you a bad person, after all these men put us through its completely natural to feel like they should get their come-uppence somehow, and especially if he's guilty and deserves it.

 

[KaeRit21]

well....he got what he deserved and hes locked up. how long for am not sure yet...i thought id feel relief but tbh i dont know how i feel yet. its actually hit me for six.
i just thought id be fine as we're not together and he deserves everything thats coming, and ive known it was coming.... but now its for defo, im a bit like....

?x


xx

 

[xCorkettex]

Its going to be a shock hon x
He wouldn't be locked away if there wasn't a reason (sorry, i dont know the story behind it).Look at all the positives eg him NOT turning up when he fancies and playing the doting dad.......for a day or two.

 

[purpledahlia]

hmm well if hes been locked away then he must deserve it, dont worry about it.. he wasnt helping much anyways was he, now you can relax and be a mummy with less stress x

 

[sweetlullaby]

if he got locked up hun he must have deserved it. a judge wont lock someone up for nothing.

Your bound to feel a bit all sorts! at least he wont be showing up when it suits him and harrassing you and giving you a hard time etc!! xx

 

[KaeRit21]

he does deserve it, no way round it...but i guess it just seems real. ive gotten used to do it doing it all on my own but he was still THERE if that makes sense, in his own little annoying typical guy way...now hes not....

i dont know. i cant make sense of my own head today. ive walked around in a daze since 12, with spontaneous crying episodes thrown in for good measure.

im officially a weirdo.

xxxx

 

[teal]

I don't think you're a weirdo. You'll just need time to accept it

At least you'll know where you stand and you won't have to wonder if he is going to swan in and out of you and your little ones lives! xx

Hope you're feeling better soon

 

[KaeRit21]

thanks girls...guess it really is just bump n me now... oh well only one way to look now....forward.

xxx

 

[teal]

I agree! The only way to look

You'll be great!! xx