toria_x
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This is going to be a rant so be warned!
When I had my little girl, I was 18, so obviously quite young and at the time I was very much in love with her dad. Things changed rapidly so to cut a VERY long story short, we split before she was born & have been going through hell with court and contact centre until a few months ago (not my doing I would like to point out) so I have already beaten myself up over giving my daughter an awful dad & have been judge (wrongly) plenty of times!
Luckily, that's all sorted and she sees her dad regularly.
When Laila-Rose was 6 months old, I met my current partner who is 'the bees knees' aha! We have been together for over 2 and a half years now and loves Laila-Rose as if she was his own and are on our second month of trying for baby #2.
Myself, my partner and my daughter live together in gateshead in our own house, neither of us work but that is simply because we have enough savings to live off and not need to work. My daughter goes to nursery 2 afternoons a week and adores it!
So that's our background, here comes the rant!!
My first pregnancy, although I actually adored all the physical stuff that goes with it, the emotional side was vile and I spent most of it in tears.
I raised a baby with severe colic on my own, moved into our own flat and lived there for 1 year before moving with my partner.
This time around, I feel like everything is perfect and We are SO SO excited to add to our family.
However it seems that other people just find it impossible to be as happy if at all. All I seem to get from certain people is snide remarks and an extremely jealous attitude.
I sit here wondering 'Why can I not just have this?'
Everybody wants the perfect pregnancy and to feel happy and excited. I never had that and this is my chance!
I may not have explained myself properly and may seem ridiculous but I needed to get it off my chest!
xxx
When I had my little girl, I was 18, so obviously quite young and at the time I was very much in love with her dad. Things changed rapidly so to cut a VERY long story short, we split before she was born & have been going through hell with court and contact centre until a few months ago (not my doing I would like to point out) so I have already beaten myself up over giving my daughter an awful dad & have been judge (wrongly) plenty of times!
Luckily, that's all sorted and she sees her dad regularly.
When Laila-Rose was 6 months old, I met my current partner who is 'the bees knees' aha! We have been together for over 2 and a half years now and loves Laila-Rose as if she was his own and are on our second month of trying for baby #2.
Myself, my partner and my daughter live together in gateshead in our own house, neither of us work but that is simply because we have enough savings to live off and not need to work. My daughter goes to nursery 2 afternoons a week and adores it!
So that's our background, here comes the rant!!
My first pregnancy, although I actually adored all the physical stuff that goes with it, the emotional side was vile and I spent most of it in tears.
I raised a baby with severe colic on my own, moved into our own flat and lived there for 1 year before moving with my partner.
This time around, I feel like everything is perfect and We are SO SO excited to add to our family.
However it seems that other people just find it impossible to be as happy if at all. All I seem to get from certain people is snide remarks and an extremely jealous attitude.
I sit here wondering 'Why can I not just have this?'
Everybody wants the perfect pregnancy and to feel happy and excited. I never had that and this is my chance!
I may not have explained myself properly and may seem ridiculous but I needed to get it off my chest!
xxx