Am i being Strug along please Help!!

[LauraAvasMum]

Righ ill start with basics me and little ones dad were together 2years and 5 month he cheated and lied ALOT but he was scared me being preg and hormanal was like oh come back ill forgive you any way my little on was born with rare condition we got through almost losing her, any way my Depression after that from about 3 month was so so bad i used to have thoughts of killing her or people killing her ect this had a major effect on me , id never let her dad near me when Lo was 6 month we got our own place everything picked up i couldnt be touched but i was working on it toward the end i had a sick bug i suffer with phobia of being sick so from there i lost 4 stone in 2halfs month through not eatting i was having panic attacks ect then before we split i went out little one was with Ohs sister so i popped to shop, long story short i was raped by 5 men, being a T**t i didnt go to police i bottled it and just ended the relationship, i was so lost i turned to mate id go out to get out house because i couldnt cope i then got with an ex thinking Ah i was happy when i was 15 ill get with him month later i ran back to Little ones dad, ended it with ex and we started dating on way home from on of our dates i was jummped by my ex im now currently 13 weeks preg ! ,

anyway my Los dad after months of saying i want to be be with you the other week ran to some girl ( cant blame him i was a C**t ) but we been ( he made all first moves ) doing stuff and tonight we going on a date i just think hes killing time with me because hes waiting til july when shes back from uni he says he misses me and does things with me but is still ringing and chatting to her basically im after tonight if he doesnt choose between us ill make it simple and walk but he knows this is that what he wants , So lost and confussed i want my family back i made mistakes who hasnt but i cant cope honeslty im so suicdal its unreal xx

 

[MommaAlexis]

Let him know it makes you nervous and you want to rebuild your family and your relationship. That you don't have a problem with them being friends but you need to know if he's in it for the long haul or not. Secondly, get counseling. Not saying it to be mean, but you will never have a good relationship until you sort out your own issues first. Don't just assume he's half way out the door, because you saying you'll just walk makes ANYONE feel like they're really not that important to you. Then, they WILL walk. You need to be able to stand on your own two feet, but don't make him sound so replaceable. Good luck hun!

 

[tooyoung]

I'm so sorry for all that you have been through