Am I insane??

[babyell]

I have just hot my BFP and am struggling to think this is a different baby. I have convinced myself that it is Harry and he has come back for a second chance because his first body failed him.

We have a holiday booked for may and was looking forward to pushing Harry around in his pram, but now I keep talking to my bean saying things like 'did you not want to miss out on the holiday harry'.

I'm trying to tell myself this is a new baby and harry has gone, and if the new baby turns out to be a boy I will really struggle to believe it.

I even asked DH if it would be weird to call the baby harry if it was a boy.

I keep having the same dream where harry is about 2 stood next to DH with little shorts on and his blonde hair spiked up.

I think I am losing the plot

 

[Jox]

aww darling, i know how hard it is.

here is you want to talk

 

[babyell]

Thanks jox xxx feel like I'm losing my marbles! X

 

[Jox]

this is going to be a long stressful journey, i will have to just keep reminding myself that if this little one is a boy that its not Kasper's physical being...because i kinda didnt 'finish' my pregnancy 'properly' with him my mind may go back in time and think its kasper iykwim?

We can be crazy together x

 

[babyell]

thats kinda how i feel , that i am still pregnant with Harry and ive been stuck in some time warp or something. Its hard to desribe.

 

[Drazic<3]

Oh darling

I have found it really difficult to distinguish between this baby and my loss and that was only at 10 weeks so I find it completely understandable. I don't think you are mad. I think you need to do whatever is right for you. Although this is a different baby, there is nothing to say that this baby doesn't have Harry's spark inside. Sending love