Am I trying too hard?

[BearsMummy]

Hi Everyone, I'm new here, I'm not sure where to start............. (bear with me while I learn the shorthand!!)
I've been TTC for 9 years now, my eldest child has just turned 11 and I have been TTC since he was 2. I had a M/C at 6/40 in '09 and have had no luck since.
I have endometriosis, and have a tilted uterus, I had a hysterosalgingogram last year, tubes were all clear, DH had the usual tests, was good (sorry did'nt manage to get the details) I'm ovulating regularly.
For christmas my friend bought me a Clearblue digital ovulation test, the first time i used it, I had a big smiley!! So thought last month was my month, absolutely convinced myself I was going to get BPF, but alas came 2 days early
I really don't know where to turn now, it's all I think about, every little twinge in the TTW I convince myself I'll get a BPF, and then absoluelty devastated when its not.
I've always felt like I'm the only person to feel like this, until I found BNB, I;d really appreciate some support as I now know, there is someone who feels the same!
I have decided this month to try a softcup............ maybe??? Has anyone else tried this with any luck??

Thanks in advance ladies for any support, sorry for rabbeting on

 

[3timesacharm]

Hey there! I'm new here too! When i get the smiley face i always think i am BFP, but no luck. I think about ttc all the time!!! Everytime i see a cute baby ,i just cant wait for that day again! I'm thankful for this site...there are others like us

I've never tried "softcup", but let me know

 

[darcie]

hello i know how you feel thinking about it all the time! it drives me insane. I have a girl thats nearly 5 and i have been trying for no2 for nearly 2 years i have managed to get pregnant 3 times but have all ended very early. I have tried the soft cups and they were good but i didnt get a bfp that month. Last month i didnt do anything no opks no temping no bedding every other day and no keeping track of what cycle day i was on and i ended up getting a bfp (unfortunatly ended a week later). The 2nd time i was pregnant i had been having reflexology but not bedding on certain days and the 1st time i got pregnant was the first month we had been trying and we were ntnp so i do think it happens when you are relaxed and not trying. I hope you get your bfp soon and i wish there was something i could say to make you not stress about it but its easier said than done. Most days its all i think about x

 

[BearsMummy]

hello i know how you feel thinking about it all the time! it drives me insane. I have a girl thats nearly 5 and i have been trying for no2 for nearly 2 years i have managed to get pregnant 3 times but have all ended very early. I have tried the soft cups and they were good but i didnt get a bfp that month. Last month i didnt do anything no opks no temping no bedding every other day and no keeping track of what cycle day i was on and i ended up getting a bfp (unfortunatly ended a week later). The 2nd time i was pregnant i had been having reflexology but not bedding on certain days and the 1st time i got pregnant was the first month we had been trying and we were ntnp so i do think it happens when you are relaxed and not trying. I hope you get your bfp soon and i wish there was something i could say to make you not stress about it but its easier said than done. Most days its all i think about x

I'm so sorry for your losses, fingers crossed you get your BFP and it's a sticky one

 

[baby_hopes23]

Hey hun...so sorry to hear about your difficulties, I know how frustrating that must be for you. I don't know an awful lot about endometriosis, but has your doctor ever mentioned putting you on a Clomid to try to boost ovulation and increase your chances for conception? I know most women take it because they do not ovulate, but a high percentage also take it even though they do ovulate regularly because it can help the ovaries produce better follicles. I was put on Clomid because I do not ovulate and conceived my DS almost straight away and a friend of mine took it even though she does ovulate and she got pregnant her 2nd month. Just a thought

 

[BearsMummy]

Yeah the FS suggested I go on Clomid back in September because my cycles are all over the place, but wants me to keep a record of 6 months cycles, i'm now waiting to be refered back to the FS.
There is an issue with me going on Clomid. I am only 4'9", and if i have a multiple pregancy, it could be dangerous for myself and the baby(s), as i have a higher risk of not being able to carry to term.

We'll see what she says when I go back

 

[baby_hopes23]

Oh that's true, I believe Clomid does increase your chances for multiples by like 10% right? I only had one egg release when I ovulated on Clomid, although I don't ovulate on my own so that probably decreases my chances of multiples a bit

Well hopefully you will still be able to use Clomid in the lowest dose and it will get you your BFP!!! GL hun, keep us posted

 

[BearsMummy]

Wow, I've just stummbled upon my first ever post!!

I don't know if anyone checks in here, but just to update, I'm waiting for my referal back to FS, so hopefully my appointment will be soon.

I'm actually quite scared about whats going to happen, I'm scared they are going to say theres nothing they can do for me. This might be my last ever appointment, and I don't know how I will cope with that. Its been 9 years TTCLT, they might say, if it was going to happen, it would have done by now!!! At least at this moment, I have an appointment to look forward to and a glimmer of hope. If the appointment comes ound and they say theres nothing they can do, where do I go from there? How can I channel these feelings and learn to live with that??

OK, I'm rabbling..... I do that when scared!! I'm going to shut up now.

 

[baby_hopes23]

hey hun!

Glad to hear your FS appointment is soon! I am sure you're worried and apprehensive about what they will say, but if they tell you there's nothing they can do, I would get a 2nd opinion and keep going to FS's until you find one that is willing to help you achieve your dream of having another baby, that is their job, they're supposed to do whatever they can in their power to help you A good FS will be up for any challenge, my feeling is that they get into their field because they take pride and great joy in being able to help couples who have lost hope, so I pray your FS is that kind of doctor, he/she will be more than happy to bend over backwards to help you achieve a healthy pregnancy

GL hun, keep us updated!