I'm so angry right now. It's 5:30am and I'm awake as I'm furious that my DH didn't bother his arse coming home. His phone is switched off as well so I can't get the hold of him. He went to a leaving do at his works bar which is about 500m away from home and he hasn't come back. He's in the army and there always seems to be something on but this night was one if his's mate's leaving do and I didn't mind him going. He promised to be back by 11pm as Saturday is my 1 day to get a lie in and he was also supposed to watch DD so that I could go and have a bath this morning before meeting up with a friend. Then this afternoon there is a memorial on for someone who got killed in Afghanistan and he is going to that and then it is back to the f$&king bar again!! I fully support him going to the memorial don't get me wrong but I'm fed up with how often he seems to have to go out on the piss. We've had rows over it in the past and he himself says that he needs to drink less. I keep telling him that he has to remember that when these guys leave he never sees them again, they are more like acquaintances, that his true mate are X, Y and Z and his family are me and DD and that we should be his priority. I wanted to go and meet up with a friend I haven't seen in years today (we keep in touch loads though) and I also need to go and get a dress taken up but now I'm not going to be able to meet my friend as we were meeting for a coffee this morning before she went to work and I cant take the dress to be taken up as for some unknown reason he put my bloody shoes into the roof space and it is clear he isn't going to be in a fit state to go up a ladder to get me them. I'm very very angry!! We had some serious rows a couple of weeks ago about his grumpy moods where he'd fly off the handle being super aggressive over nothing to the point where I was going to leave him, he made some changes and he did get better but this is making me feel the same again. I don't have much money to get him thoughtful gifts or anything so I show him how I feel by doing little things like cooking him meals and traybakes etc he really enjoys and other little things. I do 90% of the cleaning in the house, most of the cooking and dishes, most of the childcare and I feel that because he supports me I owe him all of that but I'm really fed up and I'm not prepared to live like this with 2 kids. Right now we live near my family and friends and I have a decent job. In the next 12-18 months we'll be moving to England and if this upsets me now it will be 100 x worse when I'm away so I'm really worried. Sorry for the long rant!!!