~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Luke's_mummy]

For me, I didn't really struggle in pregnancy but I think that is because I lost 3 stone through hypermisis anyway. But now I've had him, and especialy right now 6 months down the line, I find it really difficult, my Oh always tells me I'm beautiful and what ever, but it just pisses me off because I feel like he's trying to manipulate me. Does that even make sense.

 

[jen1604]

Hi everyone and thanks for being so welcoming!

My MW has been great and has said if I need support at any time to let her know. Trouble is, I had an assessment back in January with the Community Mental Health team and they were meant to get back to me within the week and organise CBT. Never happened despite me chasing them up so I thought sod it and went it alone with help from hubby and friends. So I'm wondering whether any support would actually materialise...

Hmmm.They are normally better about sorting things quickly if it is a health professional getting on their case so I would be tempted to let your midwife deal with it for you?

For me, I didn't really struggle in pregnancy but I think that is because I lost 3 stone through hypermisis anyway. But now I've had him, and especialy right now 6 months down the line, I find it really difficult, my Oh always tells me I'm beautiful and what ever, but it just pisses me off because I feel like he's trying to manipulate me. Does that even make sense.

Why does it feel like he's trying to manipulate you sweetie?

 

[Luke's_mummy]

I feel like he's just saying it so that I will eat properly or so that I wont purge iykwim. I know I''m probably being stupidly paranoid here, but I can't help it. It makes me feel sick when he says I'm beautiful :/

 

[jen1604]

Oh honey I'm really sure he does mean you are beautiful but I can understand what you're saying.I never believe it when other people say I'm beautiful/thin,I always feel like they're saying it just because they think they 'should' xx

 

[Groovychick]

Oh honey I'm really sure he does mean you are beautiful but I can understand what you're saying.I never believe it when other people say I'm beautiful/thin,I always feel like they're saying it just because they think they 'should' xx

I can definitely empathise with you there.

 

[courtney89]

So I have been looking around at the 1st and 2nd trimester bump pictures. Some of these women are still so thin It makes me jealous... So I thought I would post my 20 week bump picture here to show you all myself.

 

[Groovychick]

Your bump is gorgeous hun! And you have nothing to worry about in terms of you weight.

 

[jen1604]

Your bump is gorgeous hun! And you have nothing to worry about in terms of you weight.

Completely agree Your bump is gorgeous Courtney

 

[jen1604]

Also,actually,so is your wall,thats a lovely wall behind you x

 

[Luke's_mummy]

Also,actually,so is your wall,thats a lovely wall behind you x

It really is!

You look wonderful cortney babe. honestly! xx

 

[jen1604]

Luke's_mummy how are you doing today?

I'm doing terribly,I havent eaten without throwing up for days I think its going to be a trip back to therapy for me

 

[Louiseandbump]

Today has not been a good day.

Its like I cant be trusted to have a day alone without proper distractions otherwise I end up eating crap, knowing how ill feel afterwards. Had a mcdonalds today, and im sure you can guess the result afterwards.

Im not worried about bump because i know i have made up for it with a salad and pitta etc a little later, but I am worried that one day shes going to be a curious little girl and start asking questions. This is NOT something i want to pass to my little girl.

I swear to myself ill never let her hear me say ''im putting on weight'' ''look at my fat legs'' or see me examine myself in the mirror looking disgusted but whats the point in protecting her from this in a superficial way when deep down im stuck in the middle of this cancer inside me which is one way or another going to have an effect on her life one day if i dont cut this shit out.

Wheres the off switch please?!

 

[Luke's_mummy]

Thanks for asking. I'm not doing great, I've only eaten once in the last 2 days. Have also been tanking and smoking heavily to supress my appetite :/

It's Alice btw.

What do you think it is thats made you get into such a bad place again Jen? x

 

[louandivy]

Today has not been a good day.

Its like I cant be trusted to have a day alone without proper distractions otherwise I end up eating crap, knowing how ill feel afterwards. Had a mcdonalds today, and im sure you can guess the result afterwards.

Im not worried about bump because i know i have made up for it with a salad and pitta etc a little later, but I am worried that one day shes going to be a curious little girl and start asking questions. This is NOT something i want to pass to my little girl.

I swear to myself ill never let her hear me say ''im putting on weight'' ''look at my fat legs'' or see me examine myself in the mirror looking disgusted but whats the point in protecting her from this in a superficial way when deep down im stuck in the middle of this cancer inside me which is one way or another going to have an effect on her life one day if i dont cut this shit out.

Wheres the off switch please?!

It absolutely terrifies me that my little girl could develop anorexia. Thats my only real motivation to stay in recovery, kids pick up on SO much.

 

[Louiseandbump]

It absolutely terrifies me that my little girl could develop anorexia. Thats my only real motivation to stay in recovery, kids pick up on SO much.

Exactly. Minds like sponges.

Ive spent that much of my life, over eating, under eating, fasting, binging and purging that i dont know if i know how to maintain a normal diet. Which is such bullshit cos im qualified in child education an studied healthy eating in depth. Well done on recovery though, im trying to get there.

 

[courtney89]

Well ladies, im sick again. I just got over this nasty cold about 2 weeks ago. They had me on a antibiotic and pills for cough. If this gets bad like last time im going to call the doctor. I hope things are going well for you all today.

 

[louandivy]

It absolutely terrifies me that my little girl could develop anorexia. Thats my only real motivation to stay in recovery, kids pick up on SO much.

Exactly. Minds like sponges.

Ive spent that much of my life, over eating, under eating, fasting, binging and purging that i dont know if i know how to maintain a normal diet. Which is such bullshit cos im qualified in child education an studied healthy eating in depth. Well done on recovery though, im trying to get there.

Don't be so hard on yourself, eating disorders are serious illnesses just because you're an expert on healthy eating doesn't mean its easy to follow it yourself! Pm me if you ever want to talk x

 

[Louiseandbump]

Right if you dont want to hear a rant i suggest you skip this post.

FUCKKKKKK. I just read something that has massively freaked me out.
Weight gain thread in 2nd tri on here, and the biggest weight gain is 18lbs.
I have gained 20lbs which is annoying cos ive been good.
I know part of it is pay back for restricting/purging pre pregnancy but shit.
reccomended weight gain for pregnancy with normal bmi is 25lbs?!
Im supposed to just gain 5lbs?! Cos im 24 weeks so thats not gonna happen.
I am really upset right now. Wtf. Urgh

I am seriously going to have to fight this to stop myself being an idiot and make sure im keeping my food down and stuff. I hate being this out of control.

Anyone able to help with how much they gained in pregnancy etc?
Would LOVE to hear that someone gained a good amount and lost it ok after.

 

[Luke's_mummy]

I gained 3 stone when pregnant :cries: but by 3 months post partum I was back to the weight I was pre preg xxxx

 

[Groovychick]

everyone