~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[jen1604]

Thanks for asking. I'm not doing great, I've only eaten once in the last 2 days. Have also been tanking and smoking heavily to supress my appetite :/

It's Alice btw.

What do you think it is thats made you get into such a bad place again Jen? x

I'm having a few arguments about custody and stuff with the kids dad Aswell as I have started seeing someone new,its in the very early stages so its all very nerve wracking etc,a new person seeing me naked is like EEEK.
Thank you for asking Alice

Are you managing any better with eating? Smoking so easily becomes a replacement for me to,so I really attempt to not buy cigarettes ever.

As for what you girls are saying about your children picking it up I can totally relate.Ophelia is coming up to 2 and a half now and notices every little thing.Luckily though she has no idea what is going on and is so perfect with eating.We sit around the table for meals and I always attempt to having something in front of me.At this age that says enough to her that 'mummy has her dinner,Ophelia has her dinner,Lennon has his dinner' but am conscious that won't be enough as she gets bigger.To be honest its my one big reason for getting better,if I did what I wanted for me I would be stick thin and not bother with recovery,its the kids I really want to do it for.They don't deserve to be messed up by my issues.

Louise do not worry,my best friend gained 5 STONE when she was pregnant and was back to a teeny size eight within a year of having her baby.Do not panic

 

[louandivy]

I don't go near scales ever, had to have blind weigh-ins at my check up appointments, maybe you should do the same hun? But I did swell up a lot the last few weeks which I'm sure would have made my weight shoot up but it all came off very quickly. Just think about how lovely and healthy your bubs must be

 

[rockys-mumma]

Hi everyone I hope you are all ok

Thought i'd post on here as I have problems, not really sure how to classify them but i kind of binge eat for ages then starve myself for ages... if that makes sense.

I know im slim... i know im a uk size 8 and stuff and should be greatful but i still absoloutly hate myself when i look in the mirror i think im discusting! My belly is horrid and so are my hips. Everyone tells me i look great and that lots of people are envious etc but i just feel like they are total lies and really im just a flubbery mess and want to be sick in my mouth a little! And everyone tells me to stop being stupid because im 'apparently' so slim and it just makes me feel worse. My OH don't understand and makes comments like 'why would you wear a top/jeans that tight/clingy if you didnt like what was underneath because they dont leave much to the imagination' but its not like at all! I also think that he is very insecure and would rather me have no confidence and feel like this and occasionly makes very very unhelpful comments

I look at other people and get so jealous. Its totally a self esteem thing too.

Bleugh, I'm kind of waffling. Feels good to get it out though.



Oh and Alice you appear to be beautiful confident person to me. I'm sad you feel this way and you should listen to Charlie, you are beautiful. I know how unhelpful this comment is as I just said above that it doesn't matter what people say to me it makes no difference. anyway xx

 

[Louiseandbump]

Hi rockys-mumma.
Sounds like you are displaying classic eating disorder traits
Well done for posting, and know that you're not alone in this. x

 

[Groovychick]

 

[Jellyt]

Hi guys. Well I weighed myself this morning and I was 6st 9! (93lbs). All I ate yesterday was some quorn eggs that I threw up. My ribs and collar bone are sticking out and I feel gross . It doesn't help that OH is being so incredibly shit. Ugh how did I end up here again?!

 

[Groovychick]

Please get help hun!

 

[louandivy]

Hi guys. Well I weighed myself this morning and I was 6st 9! (93lbs). All I ate yesterday was some quorn eggs that I threw up. My ribs and collar bone are sticking out and I feel gross . It doesn't help that OH is being so incredibly shit. Ugh how did I end up here again?!

thats dangerously low darling, do you have anyone you can go to? Why is your OH being shit?

I've been really ill and barely eaten for 3 days. I feel thinner and forgot how much I miss feeling hungry makes me feel 'pure'. Got to keep thinking of Ivy and how I don't want her to pick up my behaviour.

 

[Louiseandbump]

Jellyt PLEASE speak to someone, a doctor or a trusted friend. Dont go through this alone and i know its easy to say, but think about you're little one. She needs her mummy! x

 

[Sarah10]

Right if you dont want to hear a rant i suggest you skip this post.

FUCKKKKKK. I just read something that has massively freaked me out.
Weight gain thread in 2nd tri on here, and the biggest weight gain is 18lbs.
I have gained 20lbs which is annoying cos ive been good.
I know part of it is pay back for restricting/purging pre pregnancy but shit.
reccomended weight gain for pregnancy with normal bmi is 25lbs?!
Im supposed to just gain 5lbs?! Cos im 24 weeks so thats not gonna happen.
I am really upset right now. Wtf. Urgh

I am seriously going to have to fight this to stop myself being an idiot and make sure im keeping my food down and stuff. I hate being this out of control.

Anyone able to help with how much they gained in pregnancy etc?
Would LOVE to hear that someone gained a good amount and lost it ok after.

Don't worry hunni i went from 120lbs to 167lbs when pregnant with Jayden, i lost it within 6 weeks (not deliberatley not eating (if that makes sense) i was just so tired that food didn't come into it. x

 

[courtney89]

Thats it,im fed up!! I will become skinny after this pregnancy. I will not sit around be a fat ass!! I went to a beauty pagent tonight and I felt like a huge whale!! Those girls have no idea how lucky they are to be skinny. I found myself thinking, how may of them have eating disorders.. then thought, most likely none of them!! This is pathetic!!!

HELP!!!!

 

[Phantom]

My friend gave me a picture of us from a while ago when I was 82 lbs. It really triggered me. I am so huge now. If I don't conceive my summer baby, I'm going to lose weight. I have to. None of my clothes fit. I miss being so close to perfect. I can't believe I let myself get so big. I must be 110 by now. I'm sorry for such a negative post. I can see that many of you are struggling now.

 

[courtney89]

My friend gave me a picture of us from a while ago when I was 82 lbs. It really triggered me. I am so huge now. If I don't conceive my summer baby, I'm going to lose weight. I have to. None of my clothes fit. I miss being so close to perfect. I can't believe I let myself get so big. I must be 110 by now. I'm sorry for such a negative post. I can see that many of you are struggling now.

The lowest I got was 85lbs. I would give anything to get down to 80!!! Why do I have to be so fat

 

[Groovychick]

Girls, neither of you are fat. Your images of yourselves are distorted into making you think so. You may think 80lb is a great weight to be, but there are so many health problems associated with being this low that you would be at a high risk of suffering a heart attack or electrolyte imbalances.

Please get help ladies.

 

[Jellyt]

Thank you for your concern . I know I'm just having a lapse and I've gotten better by myself before and can do it again I'm just having a bit of a difficult time at the moment( won't go into it now as I'm on my phone but will explain later) which has triggered bad eating habits. The thing is, OH just says "go to the doctors"and doesn't attempt to talk about how I'm feeling. I know it's difficult for him but I really have to force him to give a shit about anything I'm feeling at the moment. I gave him a bit of kick up the backside last night and he's been better today so we'll see how long it lasts. And girls, 80lbs is only attractive to people also suffering. I know that sounds harsh but when I see photos of myself when I was 84lbs I feel sick. I don't think I ever wanted to be that thin, I would be so happy if I could be 120lbs and feel comfortable in my own skin but I can't. To actually want to be that thin is really worrying

 

[Groovychick]

And girls, 80lbs is only attractive to people also suffering. I know that sounds harsh but when I see photos of myself when I was 84lbs I feel sick. I don't think I ever wanted to be that thin, I would be so happy if I could be 120lbs and feel comfortable in my own skin but I can't. To actually want to be that thin is really worrying

You are right hun.

 

[aidensxmomma]

Hey ladies.

This is going to be a pretty negative post, so sorry in advance. I just had some bad stuff happen this last week and it's sent me into a tailspin. It's actually been a little over a week.

First, let me start by saying that the trigger I had for developing my ED was that a boy in my 6th grade class told another boy not to date me because I was too fat. Since then I've been "recovered" and then relapsed multiple times. Currently in a relapse.

I was hanging out with one of my close guy friends and his brother, who lives with him, is my ex (first serious relationship). Well, I was hanging out with my friend and we made out a little and whatever. Well, the next day my ex told my friend that all I am is a fat whore. For real.

I cried for hours because he called me fat. The whore part of it didn't even register. And since then I've eaten a total of like 1000 calories. Not too bad except for the fact that this was 8 or 9 days ago. It's been bad.

The worst part is I can fit into my size 9 jeans again. That makes me so happy and makes me not want to eat at all. My mind and my body are waging war on me right now because I'm struggling with "to eat or not to eat."

Ugh. Sorry for the negative post.

 

[Groovychick]

 

[rockys-mumma]

you have to eat something hun, even just a little!

Oh and are you a whore? I very much doubt it, as you are equally not fat! Ignore your ex the silly little man xx

 

[flugella]

for everyone who needs them!

I'm having a weird day today - put on 1lb which is to be expected in 2nd tri but then realised that I'm rather enjoying the fact I still have morning sickness and I'm being sick once a day. Have given myself a stern talking to and am determined not to get back into the inducing vomiting way of thinking but it's hard isn't it?