Anxiety? Check. Early Ovu? Miscarriage? Preggo?

[crzycatldy]

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Hi everyone. It's my first time posting, and I'm going a bit crazy right now. My husband has <2% Morphology. I have checked out fine with all testing done. We miscarried twice, both early. One was a missed-miscarriage.

We have seen a specialist and were told "I could conceive naturally, but my body will continue to reject any poor embryos." The dr. said it came down to "how many blows (emotionally and physically) I could handle with miscarriages."

I feel like I will never experience the "joy" of pregnancy. I worry about NOT conceiving, and then when I do, I'm petrified of the blood, and the miscarriage. This whole thing has left me in an emotional state of hamster-wheel anxiety. So welcome to my new dilemma. Ih the photos, two days ago I took a test that LOOKS like either an evap or a SLIGHT positive. Yesterday, it was negative.

Look at the month pics, if you could. The notes start when my breasts tingled, and have progressed to aching. Today, they don't ache much. Every day (along with the notes corresponding), I have had cramps.

I'm so confused. And worried. What should I think about all of this? Early ovulation? Pregnant? Ectopic pregnancy? Chemical? Ugh. I can't get into the dr. till Wednesday, as I work 4x10s. Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

 

[maryanne1987]

I'm sorry for everything you have been through. I have to be completely honest that the test looks like an evap that those tests are very prone to. If you still have 5 days till AF is due though then there's still plenty of time to get a bfp. But to save heartache always back up lines on a blue dye with a pink dye test. Good luck!

 

[crzycatldy]

Thank you for the reply. Yes, I agree. It looks like an evap to me. I guess that's why it's messing with my head....the sore breasts...the mild cramps...I'm like clockwork with my period. The EARLIEST everything starts is 4-5 days MAX before AF. This week and a half crap is strange, especially with the tingly nipple sensation (sorry. tmi lol). I guess only time will tell. I need to find a way to handle these next five days.