Anxiety disorders, OCD, Depression?

[samantha_sarah]

I was just wondering how many people suffer with any of these?

I developed an anxiety disorder in my childhood and have now developed a form of OCD. Mine is only triggered by hormone fluctuations such as menstral cycle and pregnancy lol!

I am booked in for counsilling in february x

 

[asacia]

I suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with related complications (depression, anxiety and OCD). I'm 21 now, and I developed PTSD after being sexually abused when I was 11.

All treatment is on hold while I'm pregnant, shall see how I am when I've stopped breastfeeding, then continue on medication and with therapy if needed.

What 'sort' of OCD do you have? My main problem is dermotillomania, intrusive and obsessive thoughts and chanting. When I'm stressed, I suffer more with compulsions relating to dirt and contamination.

 

[samantha_sarah]

I suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with related complications (depression, anxiety and OCD). I'm 21 now, and I developed PTSD after being sexually abused when I was 11.

All treatment is on hold while I'm pregnant, shall see how I am when I've stopped breastfeeding, then continue on medication and with therapy if needed.

What 'sort' of OCD do you have? My main problem is dermotillomania, intrusive and obsessive thoughts and chanting. When I'm stressed, I suffer more with compulsions relating to dirt and contamination.

Hi i get intrusive and obsessive thoughts OCD. My anxiety used to be focused around health but nows its the OCD thats bothering me lol. It started with if you dont put that there then bad things will happen to getting flashbacks of creepy stuff iv seen on tv, films etc its like i try to scare myself! very very odd

i dont get it everyday just when stressed, hormonal lol!

 

[honey08]

ive very bad anxiety,had this for the past few yrs now,and i feel like its taken till july this yr till they finally listerned to me uknow
ive stopped seeing a counsellor while pg cos i dont wana be worrying bout to many things,and thinking of stuff over and over again, im seeing a consultant in pregnancy.....do these help u more? MW just said cos of my anxiety i will b seeing consultant, av app in next 2wk, sry to hear ur troubles ladies

 

[Sovereign]

I suffer from depression.x

 

[v2007]

I have anxiety problems and depression stemming forom the death of Taylor, i have paranoia that this 1 will die like she did.
I have had suicidal thoughts in the past, which are more acute when i fall into my depression.

Not a good combo.

v x x

 

[asacia]

ive very bad anxiety,had this for the past few yrs now,and i feel like its taken till july this yr till they finally listerned to me uknow
ive stopped seeing a counsellor while pg cos i dont wana be worrying bout to many things,and thinking of stuff over and over again, im seeing a consultant in pregnancy.....do these help u more? MW just said cos of my anxiety i will b seeing consultant, av app in next 2wk, sry to hear ur troubles ladies

I saw the consultant because of my mental health problems, and she said to let her know if I need any help, because she is able to put pressure on the Mental Health Team. If I need to see someone, she can get an appointment through quicker. I don't know if she can access any different treatment, but she definitely said she can make things happen faster.

 

[Shifter]

I've suffered from depression and anxiety since puberty. I've never been medicated, but have had counselling a few times and a course of CBT this year.

I was put under a consultant for pregnancy as risk of antenatal depression is high. My CBT finished when I was about 16 weeks and I felt great. But I've gone down hill since 20 weeks and have had to have a refresher course of CBT. It hasn't really helped much though and my moods are fluctuating a lot at the moment.

But I do feel well provided for in terms of available care. The counsellor I saw for my refresher made it clear that I could go directly to them if I need to again, there's no cap on the amount of sessions I can have.

My antenatal doctor has also arranged for me to meet my health visitor shortly before bubs is due rather than waiting until after the birth, so that she can get to know me a bit in order to better judge my state of mind after the birth.

 

[soliloquise]

depression and ptsd here. it has been v hard cos i have had to come off my ssri due to pregnancy, plus i have been under a lot of stress with errant father, disapproving parents and health probs... not good.

 

[Angel2Fire]

I suffer from Borderline personality disorder and anxiety. I've been very lucky that I can stay on my tablets.

My local hospital has a specialist mental health midwife who has been great. There's also a perinatal mental health team but luckily I'm doing well and haven't needed to see them yet.

 

[indianorchi]

I had finally started seeing someone after struggling with depression since primary school but refused to go to my sesion a few days ago and probably lost my place
I regret it now but on that day I could think of nothing worse than dragging myself out of bed to sit and talk about all the things that upset me.
Although pregnancy has made everything harder to cope with and I've been a lot more emotional it's helped with the other bits that go with it. Just before I met my OH I strictly monitored my weight, made myself sick, there was self harm, lots of drinking and cocaine for a while but I fell pregnant not long after we got together and it's like it all magically went away.
Had a big set back when OH was unfaithful which was made worse by feeling trapped not being able to resort to any of my old methods of coping.
The main problem now is my imagination/mind. I'll be having a good time then a thought will pop into my head 'OH cheated!' and that will be it, it will take over my thoughts, scenes will play out in my head of it happening and the trapped feeling comes back.
This post is becoming an autobiography haha!
I'm a bit scared about what's going to happen when Joshua's born, pregnancy's been a bit of a safety blanket.

 

[asacia]

I'm a bit scared about what's going to happen when Joshua's born, pregnancy's been a bit of a safety blanket.

I'm worried too.

Earlier in the year, I was worse than I've been for a long time. The self-harm and purging only stopped when I found out I was pregnant.

I wasn't planning on getting pregnant for a long time. Although I've wanted to start a family for a long time, I didn't think I was well enough. After a few years of trying, we stopped, and I got pregnant!

I've been really well while I've been pregnant, I came off anti-drepressants and anti-pyschotics and I've been stable.

I'm not sure what will happen when I'm no longer pregnant.

 

[xBumpandLaura]

I have depression, anorexia, OCD, and social anxiety. I was diagnosed over 2 years ago when I was just 13, but now i'm 15 and things have only got worse. When I found out I was pregnant, i knew things had to change because i had to do the right thing. I had to come off my antridepressents, amongst other tablets, and i was so scared. I had to start eating healthy, stop self harming and purging, and had to accept things weren't ever going to be the same. Seeing the weight gain and my changing figure is hard to cope with, even at the best of times.

I'm scared about post-natal depression, and I agree with indianorchi, i'm terrified when my baby is born. I don't know if I'll be a good mother, and i'm scared that i'll fall back into the terrible mind frame of anorexia once again. I felt suicidle in those dark days, and i don't think i'm be able to cope with that and a baby.

I see coucellors, but CBT hasn't helped. Pregnancy has been a safeblanket, because what i do to my body has an affect on the LO so i had to do the right thing, but when s/he's born, i can do anything to my body and it won't kill my child, so i don't have that thought stopping me anymore. I think that's the scariest aspect. Where i stand at the moment, i'm not a recovered anorexic or a 'cured' depressive.

But, having said all that and sending a really depressing post, I am truely overjoyed that i'm pregnant, and i'm really enjoying experiencing this wonderdful jorney. I'm just weary that my state of mind i experienced pre-pregnancy will return just as quickly as it went away.

 

[indianorchi]

It's a scary thought isn't it. I'm hoping I'll be so overjoyed with my new baby that I can stay balanced but I'm doubtful. There have been times when I've thought about suicide and the only thing stopping me has been the thought of hurting my gorgeous unborn baby, so it's a scary thought that once that's not an issue everything could spiral out of control.
The weight/body image issues are a real worry to me too because this is the first time I've been proud of my body, being big but knowing I've got a little boy in my tummy...I love it, but when I'm no longer pregnant will it all start again?
Hopefully we'll have nothing to worry about but if everything goes horribly wrong there will be loads of support both profesionally and on here. This site really is great, everyone's so helpful and lovely and you can always find someone who's either been through or is going through the same things as you

 

[Shifter]

Sorry to hear of the struggle other people are facing. I understand your concerns about after the pregnancy is over. Try to remember that the same maternal instinct keeping you safe now will still be there once you babies are born. It won't be tucked safely inside you any more, but it will still be utterly dependent on you so you must stay safe and healthy for the sake of your LO

 

[xBumpandLaura]

It's a scary thought isn't it. I'm hoping I'll be so overjoyed with my new baby that I can stay balanced but I'm doubtful. There have been times when I've thought about suicide and the only thing stopping me has been the thought of hurting my gorgeous unborn baby, so it's a scary thought that once that's not an issue everything could spiral out of control.
The weight/body image issues are a real worry to me too because this is the first time I've been proud of my body, being big but knowing I've got a little boy in my tummy...I love it, but when I'm no longer pregnant will it all start again?

that's exactly how i feel. I'm so glad someone else feels this way too, because you begin to think you're the only one having these feelings and thoughts. I'm sure (i hope) that the love i feel for my baby will begin to outweigh the depressive thoughts and the anorexia, but i know i'm at very high risk of post-natal depression. I try my best to keep my chin up, but sometimes it's just not enough. My aunty suffered from it, and it was horrible just to observe.
But you're right, the people from the site have already helped me in so many ways, and i'm so glad i stumbled over it when i was only 6 weeks pg!

 

[indianorchi]

Only time will tell I guess. As Shifter said, the babies will still be dependent on us so hopefully that will be enough to keep us balanced. There really will be no time for selfishness

 

[Beltane]

OCD and anxiety here. =(

 

[samantha_sarah]

You girls are all very brave opening up, i know how hard it can be. I always fear people with label me 'Crazy' when i know im not.

im hoping that once LO is born i wont have any time to worry about myself!

Hope you girls have a good crimbo


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[Dragonfly]

I suffer from anxiety and depression. The anxiety is horrid and stops me from going out most the time. I dread apps with midwives in case i crumble but i dont tell them as there is no help i can get i am off all my meds from the begining of this preg. I feel happier but I stil am nervous.Mine came from abuse also. I have been to docs ad they throw tabs at me which I am scared to take. i wont even take pain killers. I just get stupid thoughts that i cant do something and freak out as i have no self esteem. I hope i will be ok after baby is born i can go on sometihg then or maybe it will not be so bad then . I used to go out every day just to try and get over it and now i aint been out in months due to illness with pregnancy. i am dreading things like christening, I will have to go to church and when I get nervous i get dizzy and feel ill. Thenpanic in case I am sick infront of people. Its all in the head though.

With a bit of luck I will hopefully some day rid me of the anxiety. Its been years away from abuseive ex who i let ruin me.