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So after weeks of waiting I’ve finally been given a date for my first scan 14th November. I honestly feel like it’s forever away! Anyone have any advise on how to calm myself whilst I wait? This is my first baby and I’m terrfied I just want to hear that heart beat. Since I had a FET I don’t even remember when my last period was the whole process was a blur as I didn’t think it would work due to failure the first time. I honestly didn’t think this would happen for me at all and I am so terrified this gift will be taken from me! I sound crazy but it’s been such a long road to get to this point. I have all the symptoms irritable feeling sick everyday barely eating tiredness aches in my belly (which sometimes make me worry!) and occasionally spotting but I’ve been told this is due to the meds I’m on irritating my cervix. I haven’t told my OH but I just can’t see myself growing a baby I can’t see myself pregnant or giving birth or holding a baby and I know this is so negative of me but I can’t help myself. It’s like I’m preparing for the worst I’m praying my feelings are wrong because I thought the same about actually being pregnant and I was gob smacked when I found out I was. I will be around 8 weeks when I have my scan I think?! Xx