Any SMEPers!!!! 43 Testers! 22 BFP!!!!

[Tasha S.]

Krys! That's awesome! You go girl!!

Profwife-So sorry about AF!!! I hope you're doing alright!

Dove-How's your pregnancy going?

Amy-Hehe! You'll have stories to tell your daugher later on! What is your due date?

Sunny-I totally understand your impatience to POAS!! With your first pregnancy, did you have obvious symptoms before your got a BFP?? I think I would consider the worst case scenario (BFN) and how it would make you feel. I know sometimes I just want to test even if I don't have pregnancy symptoms just to get it out of my mind, and I feel okay afterwards. But sometimes I would feel really depressed. Usually it had to do with how I worked myself up, does that make sense? I would hate for a BFN to ruin your Christmas...but at the same time, a BFP would make it oh-so-much better!! I say go with your gut feeling! I wish you only the best, hun! Fx for you!

I second Krys: Alley, what's up girl??

AFM-Caught DH's fever, hehe! I was ready to give up for this month--I feel SO crappy! But I'm feeling a bit more positive now! I started having more CM on Tuesday, but Yann's fever was way too high, so we skipped that day. But we got the next two days in, and as of yesterday, I was still having lots of CM, so that doesn't look too bad! I FINALLY received that FertiliTea that I ordered via Fairhaven on Monday (it took 11 business days to ship, it was only supposed to take 2-6 days--but it was being shipped from the States, and it said that sometimes packages get stopped at the border--I'm in Canada). So I started taking that on Monday and I would attribute all of this CM to the tea. Honestly, I haven't had this much CM since before the miscarriage! YAY! Fx I didn't miss the egg on Tuesday!

It's going so slowly...I'm 11 weeks. I think it seems really slow because I'm still so scared. It's been far too eventful for me to have any peace of mind. I've had light spotting, I've lost every symptom I had for 5 days, and it took 3 days to get an ultrasound, but at least we got to see the heartbeat. I've had the worst flu of my life for 9 days now, and I've lost 9 lbs because of it, and today I have a tiny amount of spotting again. I've probably popped a blood vessel or something from all of the coughing. The Dr couldn't hear the heartbeat with the doppler on Wednesday, but I have a tilted uterus and it's always hard to hear it in the beginning. The doppler was picking it up though, which was a relief. I so want to be able to relax a bit, but we lost our son at 14 weeks, which is so late, and we didn't find out until we went for an amnio at 18 weeks....so I don't know when I'll be able to breathe easier. I want to fast forward 27-ish weeks. I just wish I could have that innocence that we have before we lose a baby. We're supposed to tell our families at Christmas, but I'm scared to say anything.....glad you asked?? LOL...I'm also at the peak of pregnancy hormones, so my mood is literally all over the place.

Have you decided what you're going to do, Sunny?

Tasha, I hope you caught that egg, it sounds like you may have

Dove! So sorry about all of this stress! OMG! 9 pounds is a lot to lose!! And I hope the spotting subsides and that it is just a popped blood vessel like you said! I totally understand when you talk about the innocence that we have before we lose a baby...I'll be keeping you in my prayers! Hang in there!

Snowflakes-Congrats!!!!

Army-Why does your shoulder hurt?? Hope you feel better too!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Lisa - congrats on the precious baby boy! Any name ideas?

Tasha - I am here! Still no O for me yet. I have totally been slacking off this cycle. Did a few days of bbt, BD'ed only once so far and just starting OPKs today at CD 18. Shoot, I might have even missed O!

AFM - I filed a complaint with the medical center about the inappropriate touching of my private part during the HSG. I wonder what now!?!?

 

[Bride2b]

Congrats on expecting a baby boy and feeling first kicks Lisa xxxx

Oh god AF is sooooo boring!!!!!!

Think I am going to book in acupuncture!

 

[Sunny skies]

Dove, what a terrible flu, hope your feeling better soon, glad you got some relief from hearing the heart beat. I totally understand about loosing the innocence of pregnancy. I never got to experience one moment of pure excitement as When I learnt I was pregnant Zi also learnt it was etopic, so I never even got a BFP to be excited about, even if just for a moment. I truly hope time speeds up so you can get past that point of worry.

Tasha, looking back I did have some symptoms such as very sensitive nipples, frequent urination and feeling really tired. I think I may test tomorrow as I have a Christmas party at night and at least If I get bad news I can drown my sorrows with a drink. My stomach has been feeling uneasy all week, I've been a little nauseous and very bloated. Could all be AF signs but something just feels different. I'm also tired but its that time of year so trying not to read too much into it.
Sorry you caught DH's fever but yah for lots of CM, looks like you might have caught that egg. Good luck.

Lisa, I guessed right, congrats. How great to feel those little kicks.

May, don't stress you usually ovulate late so make sure you jump DH. Glad you filed a complaint, do they contact you with what happens next?

I've decided I need to know before Christmas as at least I can move past it and enjoy the holidays if I get bad news. A BFP is the only thing I want this Christmas.

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Sunny - we are taking it easy this month but I do want to time BD to O. Hopefully, it'll be in the next two days. I spoke to someone at the radiology dept and gave them a brief description of what happened. Then they asked me to put it in writing in an email. They then forwarded it to the legals dept. I got a missed call from them yesterday and when I called back today everyone has already left for the day. So I guess I won't know what's up till next week. Only thing is I want my personal info to remain private in case the person (he is a fellow... Not even a full blown doctor yet) who did the procedure on me is a nutjob.

I hope you get a BFP for Xmas!!!

 

[dove830]

Dove, what a terrible flu, hope your feeling better soon, glad you got some relief from hearing the heart beat. I totally understand about loosing the innocence of pregnancy. I never got to experience one moment of pure excitement as When I learnt I was pregnant Zi also learnt it was etopic, so I never even got a BFP to be excited about, even if just for a moment. I truly hope time speeds up so you can get past that point of worry.

Tasha, looking back I did have some symptoms such as very sensitive nipples, frequent urination and feeling really tired. I think I may test tomorrow as I have a Christmas party at night and at least If I get bad news I can drown my sorrows with a drink. My stomach has been feeling uneasy all week, I've been a little nauseous and very bloated. Could all be AF signs but something just feels different. I'm also tired but its that time of year so trying not to read too much into it.
Sorry you caught DH's fever but yah for lots of CM, looks like you might have caught that egg. Good luck.

Lisa, I guessed right, congrats. How great to feel those little kicks.

May, don't stress you usually ovulate late so make sure you jump DH. Glad you filed a complaint, do they contact you with what happens next?

I've decided I need to know before Christmas as at least I can move past it and enjoy the holidays if I get bad news. A BFP is the only thing I want this Christmas.

Thanks...funny thing is, I can't even imagine a time where I won't be worried about this pregnancy. I'm the kind of person that likes milestones, but I can't think of anything. My viability date is March 21st, (a lifetime away), but even that isn't reassuring. Maybe 30 weeks, when there's a better chance. I just wish this was a nice, lovely, UNEVENTFUL pregnancy. It's amazing what we will put ourselves through, and keep putting ourselves through. I'm anxiously awaiting the notice in the mail for when our NT scan will be. I got it around 14 weeks last time...of course everything was fine, and then apparently very shortly after that day, his heart stopped beating. I wish I had my own ultrasound machine. I think doing that daily is really the only way my mind would be at ease.

Also, if you're going to test early please use a digital, like the Clear Blue Easy Digital one. It's so reassuring to actually see the words, rather than try to decipher the stupid lines, holding it up to the light, and taking it apart, lol. Especially if you're wanting to have a few drinks. I and crossing fingers AND toes for you, you so deserve your BFP

Lisa--have you just now started to feel kicks? I can't for the life of me remember when I felt them previously, but I know I'm early for it yet, and plus I don't know if having a tilted uterus makes it harder to feel or not. That's so exciting though, and so reassuring

 

[mammaspath]

Just an fyi.......jamie is in labor! Yay!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Omg, I am so excited I want to cry!!!! Good luck, Jaime!!!! Thinking of you!!!

 

[armymama2012]

Yay!!! Thanks for the update Amy. How far along was she? Just wondering because most of the SMEP babies have come around 36 weeks.

 

[threemakefive]

I think she's 39+1 I figured it was coming soon yay jaime

 

[Tasha S.]

Congrats Jamie!!!

 

[Jessica28]

Can't wait to get an update from Jaime! Been checking b & b and facebook all day!

 

[threemakefive]

Ok girls I have a situation/ question...I think we as a whole are best to answer this as I know so many have experienced a loss at different stages...

Well back story is my sil delivered a stillborn girl a year and a half ago....now...upon finding we were having a girl we knew it would be tough for her and only gave her info if she asked....well yesterday she told.me she's had a rough week that she is jealous we are having a baby...I told her I completely understand the bitterness and I have done my best to help with that...she then goes on to shorten it she straight told me why does.her brother get a baby and not her she should get one not him...that she feels like she's living through me and this is her last pregnancy and she wants to feel baby and that its like my baby is her baby...like its her baby but not...and that just so I know she wouldn't like steal baby and run off or anything!!!!!!!!! --- any thoughts on this as I am worried she would take baby now like for real lol....I understand the bitter part but not the rest...anyone else understand this thought process or has she gone off the deep end???

 

[mammaspath]

Wow three......she needs a nutso for sure.....maybe she needs counseling for her loss

 

[dove830]

Ok girls I have a situation/ question...I think we as a whole are best to answer this as I know so many have experienced a loss at different stages...

Well back story is my sil delivered a stillborn girl a year and a half ago....now...upon finding we were having a girl we knew it would be tough for her and only gave her info if she asked....well yesterday she told.me she's had a rough week that she is jealous we are having a baby...I told her I completely understand the bitterness and I have done my best to help with that...she then goes on to shorten it she straight told me why does.her brother get a baby and not her she should get one not him...that she feels like she's living through me and this is her last pregnancy and she wants to feel baby and that its like my baby is her baby...like its her baby but not...and that just so I know she wouldn't like steal baby and run off or anything!!!!!!!!! --- any thoughts on this as I am worried she would take baby now like for real lol....I understand the bitter part but not the rest...anyone else understand this thought process or has she gone off the deep end???

She very definately needs counselling....honestly I can't think of anything worse than a still birth....so heartbreaking. She obviously wants to have a baby, and I'm sure it was very difficult for her to watch your pregnancy progress. 2 of my friends had babies close to my due date, and it sucked. It really hurt, but I never thought, or said anything like that. I have, however,, thought "Why should that person have a baby and I lost mine?" about complete strangers. Makes no sense, but it's so hard to heal. I feel really sorry for her, and maybe just don't leave her alone with the baby for the first little bit, until she's ok, and YOU feel ok. So sory you're having to deal with this now

 

[threemakefive]

Thanks girls its odd to deal with at this point as OH Is in full daddy protecting mode lol...I agree it was tough for the whole family..and that's why I could understand the first extent of it...and I feel sorry for her but she definitly uses all things to get attention and I can't help but wonder if that is part of this....I understand that bitterness when its someone who can't even care for a child or a stranger but I always thought those who've lost were happy for one another no matter how bitter we became...I know I was always happy to see a ttcal get a bfp Thanks for the input!

 

[Sunny skies]

Jaime, thinking of you. Congrats!!! Can't wait to see our next SMEP baby.

 

[armymama2012]

Alley, hello? Where are you my friend?

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

JAIME!!!!! Saw baby Blake's picture on FB! So happy for you! He is gorgeous! I can't believe you are a momma! You have to tell us your experience. AHHH! So excited!

 

[Bride2b]

Yay Jaime your a mummy!!! I hope Blake is everything you imagined him to be. I cant believe he is finally here. You must be over the moon, such an amazing Christmas present. xxxx

Dove - I get what you are saying about milestones, I dont think I will be happy until at least 24 weeks when I next get pregnant as at least baby should be viable by now, its very hard to get excited etc. I was relieved with my last pregnancy that I reached 9 weeks with no bleeding (then to discover it was ectopic). With my first I had 2 small episodes of bleeding which terrified me. Getting to 12 weeks you breath a sigh of relief (usually) but sadly once you have had a loss the innocence of pregnancy is swiped from you. I felt good at 16 weeks when I heard the HB and started to relax, the weekend before I went into labour was the first time friends said I looked happy, relaxed and excited about having a baby as I was so scared. Then on the Monday my waters broke at 19 +3. BUT remember this pregnancy wont end like the last, enjoy the time being pregnant (very hard I know). I can look back at my pregnancy with Bertie and say that I have fond memories of feeling him move about etc, if you worry you wont enjoy these moments. I hope that make sense. But overall I totally get you about reaching milestones xx

Emily I think she needs counselling too. I feel very sorry for her as I know how she must be feeling, seeing pregnant people and babies when you were so close to a take home baby is very hard. Giving birth to a baby and not getting to take it home is probably one of the hardest things anyone will ever have to go through. I'm sure she isnt angry that its her brother per se, but probably just angry about pregnancy in general. I am sure when your baby is here she will probably feel jealous but I would like to think she wouldnt do anything silly - your baby wont look like hers so she shouldnt have that desire (IYKWIM). I feel very sorry that her grief has consumed her. Its very sad that she cant be excited about your baby but grief does terrible things to us.

Sunny I really hope those symptoms are the start of something xxx Cant wait for you to test and get that BFP! It would be brilliant to see xxx

AFM af is just finishing up. I have felt very stressed the last few days - not getting a bfp this cycle has really upset me. I know I ovulated from the side where I have a tube and that our timing was very good. Its so frustrating that it didnt happen. I dont know whats going to happen this month, I thought my cycles were back to O on CD19 but last month I O'd CD15 which will be New years day. The woman who does my reflexology hasnt got back to me with an appointment - thats stressing me out as I need reflexology (I am sure this helped me with my BFP last time) and just the fact I feel stress I feel I need reflexology to destress!