We're back trying again after a second miscarriage - mmc at 12 weeks this time. We were lucky enough to have a lovely daughter between the 2 mcs so I know I don't have anything to moan about compared to lots of people.
Nevertheless, I feel stuck and rather depressed. I'm working part time as a teacher in a school where I've been for ages but am starting to hate. I can't move jobs because, when my main aim in life is to get pregnant again, it doesn't seem fair on a new employer. My husband and lots of my friends are having amazing careers and I guess I'm jealous. If it hadn't been for the mcs and ttc after them, I'd either be a happy mum of 2 or more OR I'd have a decent job. As it is, it feels like I've got half a family and half a career after 3 years of cycle watching and worrying.
Even writing this makes me feel self-indulgent compared to what a lot of people go through. Still, have always found b and b a good place to vent!
Nevertheless, I feel stuck and rather depressed. I'm working part time as a teacher in a school where I've been for ages but am starting to hate. I can't move jobs because, when my main aim in life is to get pregnant again, it doesn't seem fair on a new employer. My husband and lots of my friends are having amazing careers and I guess I'm jealous. If it hadn't been for the mcs and ttc after them, I'd either be a happy mum of 2 or more OR I'd have a decent job. As it is, it feels like I've got half a family and half a career after 3 years of cycle watching and worrying.
Even writing this makes me feel self-indulgent compared to what a lot of people go through. Still, have always found b and b a good place to vent!