I was diagnosed in March '09. Was in hospital Feb '10 (on my birthday!) with DKA & they put me in a medical induced coma for 8 days. Before they put me in the coma they found I had pneumonia in both lungs; hence why I was so ill. They still had the cheek when I woke up that it was my fault for my bloods being 'outrageous!'
literally few days being admitted into hospital I asked my DSN if I could go on the DAFNE & she said no; even though I still would have been admitted attitudes with the Diabetic Team all of the from Type Two specialist to the stupid consultants. If their attitude is crap towards us them what we expected to react towards them?!
Me & OH suffered a missed miscarriage in November 2011 (in my personal reason, I think it was like 9 out of 10 ladies who get pregnant first time round and their body doesnt understand the changes and tired to get rid of whats happening) and my Diabetic Midwife blamed it because my bloods weren't in the 'pregnancy normal range' I went mental at her and because of this I asked if I could change my Diabetic Team and when I did I was about 8 weeks pregnant and they offered me a Insulin Pump and not my bloods have been ace.. not everyday! I think whatever Diabetic Type anyone is they will never in my eyes a perfect week.. yeah a few days possibly at a push but the 'normal' bloods never last that long!!
I've always said that I will never go to bed with my bloods being below 10.0 my dad is Type One he got diagnosed in early '90s and he never and still doesn't let his bloods go below 9/10.0 before bed but the consultants arent happy with him and me when we explain we don't want OH's to be giving us a glycogen pen every month because we're going into a deep coma..
When I feel down about any area of diabetes; either affecting myself or other people, I just type it all down and date it and when I feel I can come to terms with reading it I make sure OH is with me and he's really understandable and always there for me when I end up in tears (even worse now with being hormone central!!! adverts I cry at at the moment!!) but I think because we've been together before I was diagnosed he saw how bubbly and outgoing I was and then literally overnight when I was in hospital on a sliding scale everything changed from then on...
I know GD are going to be reading this and I dont want to feel like i'm blaming them for the condition they'll have for a few months and then in a few years time possibility developing Type Two.. I just get frustrated when I say 'woo 8.2% result
' and a GD says it's not good enough.. ha they honestly dont understand fully unless they have loved one whos are Type One in their lives how bloody hard it is to get from before I was pregnant a 11.1% to every two weeks having a test done and it going down 0.2% that is one huge achievement I feel that any Type One can relate too.. fair enough my basal and bolus rates have been upped a unit but makes me smile so much thinking that 8.2% is the lowest it's been so far and I want to keep going at that to get it down to the 6.5% the consultants rave about all the time..
I think Type Twos & GD should live in a Type Ones shoes for a day and that day being a good day and they soon realise that its hardwork controlling your bloods and carb count rubbish!
People say when they read my negativity about diabetes I'm in denial; I'm not I'm just frustrated and sick of other people expecting Type Ones to just do what the consultants say and get on with your day. Yes I understand full well that other people who are seriously ill or cancer patients dont complain about their conditon everyday and it seems like ive got the world on my shoulders. I havent it's just frustrating when people who dont live with the condition day in dya out and the challenges you've got to deal with dont listen
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! Can't win!!
