I'm really down. So many cycles I thought for sure that I was pregnant, but then I wasn't. Through the next 2ww, I've sworn off to believe any symptom to be a possible pregnancy symptom anymore!! Because seriously every time I had a bloody nose, constipation, cravings, nausea, bloating, gas, blue road map veins or god knows what.... it's never resulted in anything!!! I have figured out I have about 12/13 LP more or less, and well if I get spotting at anytime during the 2ww or by 12 DPO, I always know I'm out, so my 2ww's are never really all that long and I always know my answer with a guarantee and never need to bother with HPT'S. I had a decline in temps show up this past cycle by 10 DPO and cramps starting at 7 DPO, so I knew it was a failure, even though the chart looked triphasic and was rising like a staircase I wanted to believe so badly that it was implantation cramps! I'm so pissed at my body for screwing with my heart and dealing with all these emotions. I feel it might never happen for me honestly because of a few reasons: Very high daily stress taking care of 3 yr old and his tantrums, caffeine addiction to coffee, underweight. The cycle I'd had conceived, I had given up coffee completely, but I just can't seem to be able to do it this time around and I sometimes wonder if that's the reason it's not happening. I literally only drink a short-sized latte/expresso from Starbuck's or equivalent each day. You wouldn't think that's much, but I'm a small girl! All I can do is keep praying my special prayers and take my supplements. I'll be using preseed again and maca... any other suggestions?? Has anyone taken Fertilaid or Ovaboost or Fertile CM?? I'm desperate... I'll try anything. I'll even sneak sperm boosting pills into SO's power smoothies in the AM if I have to!
