Anyone else counting down to April 1st?

[Diddy2013]

Fx'd for you Mom. I hope that this week go by fast too. I'm not really sure why though. Smh. I'm finding myself stressing and crying over this whole ttc #1 though. I wish that I didn't have any emotions at all. I started crying at work today. I'm glad that DH is sort of supportive though so that helps to an extent. funny part is that I'm not even sure why I'm crying or what I want anymore. Part of me wishes that I could go back and change everything. I'm tired of people saying how right I did things, how proud they are, asking when are we going to start a family and all the same ole bs. I did what everyone is basically told go to school get good grades go to college then get married because if you don't your life will be miserable. But in reality your life can be miserable and filled with a ton of heartache at some point even if you do any of those things. There's no perfect path and I could have did all the things people steer their daughters away from and came out just fine and maybe even better.
I weighed all my options well married the love of my life and having a child, which should be the greatest thing ever, has caused me more heartache than anything else in my life. I feel like I've cried as much or maybe even more than women who have unwanted pregnancies.

Sorry for the rant. You ladies are the only ones I know who could possibly understand even the slightest of my emotions.

I have days like this, I completely understand. I thought ttc #1 would be fun but it's been a lot of heartache this far. I hope the best for you !

I'm taking fertilaid and planning for an ivf cycle.

Good news though, I applied for medication help with ivf at two places. And one place got back with 50% discount! So it's helpful. That's about the best I got for today.

 

[Mom2sam]

I was 28 when i had him & started trying when i was 23. Dh is 3 years older than me. I had said same lol i want to get 2 kids out of way before i turn 30. Tbh when i say it like 5 yrs it does sound long but once didn't feel that long as obviously first 2 yrs i kept thinking it will happen nxt cycle then once started getting tested the excitement of that made time fly by then once on clomid & going in to check if it had worked also made time fly by.
I really hope i do get a bfp this cycle its nearly been a year since i got pregnant last year & sixth cycle actually trying now so i do begin to worry is something wrong x

 

[Mom2sam]

Diddy hopefully you manage to find something but 50% discount how much that cost? X

 

[mzhwd]

Diddy 50% does definitely help. I hope that the fertilaid helps you. How are you liking it so far?

Mom I hope that you conceive this cycle too. I don't think that anything is wrong. Do you start testing tomorrow for Friday? Hopefully I'll have #1 out of the way with next year @ age 27. DH is a little over a year older than me so we don't have that much of a age gap.

fx'd for you mom. What cd are you on?

 

[Diddy2013]

Diddy hopefully you manage to find something but 50% discount how much that cost? X

Medications can be 3k-6k, so the discount can cut those prices down.

 

[Diddy2013]

Diddy 50% does definitely help. I hope that the fertilaid helps you. How are you liking it so far?

Mom I hope that you conceive this cycle too. I don't think that anything is wrong. Do you start testing tomorrow for Friday? Hopefully I'll have #1 out of the way with next year @ age 27. DH is a little over a year older than me so we don't have that much of a age gap.

fx'd for you mom. What cd are you on?

So far I don't notice anything with te fertilaid. I am cd 19 with zero signs of ovulating :/

I'll be patient for a few more months.

 

[Mom2sam]

Diddy Every little helps i guess x

Mzwid i'm 7dpo will be testing friday at 8dpo but i dont really see anything till 9dpo from experience but got 10mlu sensitive tests so you never know. Back in hospital right now with my mastitis problem i feel docs aren't helping thy've had me on 6 rounds of anti biotics in past couple month & it just kps returning. Waiting at hospital now for out of hours doctor as abscess has formed again. In pain x

 

[MolGold]

Aw Mom, hope you feel better sooon!

Diddy, you O yet? hope its soon!

here's to a round of BFPs girls!

 

[Mom2sam]

Thanks Molgold. Started round of yet another anti biotics today doc said need to do bloods to rule out diabetes. So need to get that done & she said it's quite common for it to take a little while before the infection & mastitis completely go. I'm not even breast feeding so i don't understand why i got it. She said it can happen in non breast feeding women too. Anyway hope it clears soon as it's painfull & feel feverish all the time.

 

[Mom2sam]

MolGold where are you at in your cycle?

 

[mummy_smurf2b]

Thanks Molgold. Started round of yet another anti biotics today doc said need to do bloods to rule out diabetes. So need to get that done & she said it's quite common for it to take a little while before the infection & mastitis completely go. I'm not even breast feeding so i don't understand why i got it. She said it can happen in non breast feeding women too. Anyway hope it clears soon as it's painfull & feel feverish all the time.

Sorry to hear about your pain hopefully ur feeling better now? Fx for tomorrow and Saturday

How is everyone else?

 

[Mom2sam]

M-smurf can you remember what your cm was like leading upto bfp. Mine's dried up so don't know if that's good or bad usually after ov goes pasty & then dry in between & then snotty yellow then mixed with spotting & then i get af. Anyway logged dry into ovia app & it's saying it's a sign af will follow now you know that's not what i want to hear lol
Anyway no other symptoms apart from few pelvic cramps yesterday & achey legs today which also happens before af so don't know trying my nest not to symptom spot so haven't been paying attention plus too early only 7dpo today but ovia has me thinking i'm out now due to cm drying up

 

[Mom2sam]

Meant 'best' not nest lol

 

[mummy_smurf2b]

Mine was dry so I too thought I was out even now I dnt get much cm. I didn't have any symptoms all the few I have started up after my bfp main one bein bloated n it's defo slowed down my digestion as I'm going toilette less which is worrying constipation will rear it's ugly face lol

Only 4days til my next internal scan cnt wait to see baby n heartbeat

 

[Mom2sam]

Oh i feel better then actually not much symptoms gives me hope too. Past few cycles had loads that ended up with af. Hoe exciting plz share scan pic when u get it & hope the aweful constipation stays away i deffo get it but in my case it's due to not being able to keep anything down at all so guess nothing for my bowels to be doing lol

8dpo tmrw whether to just wait til saturday to test as will be 9dpo & by previous pregnancies always got bfn stark white on 8dpo & bfp on 9dpo anyway will update you tmrw either way. Wish me luck! So nervous really want this but don't want to get my hopes up so already setting myself up for it to be bfn this cycle

 

[Mom2sam]

How' not hoe argh excuse my spelling errors using my iphone

 

[mummy_smurf2b]

Haha I hate the auto correct. I will defo share pic if they do me one this time, I hope so it would be awesome. I got my fx for you and hope this is your cycle. I'm living proof no symptoms is good hehe. I'm so glad my nausea has stayed away.

Lol my sis made me laugh today she posted on Facebook after work she went lookin for her car, walked to b n q n wandered why she had so then walked back to her work car park couldn't find her car so then walked back to her car at the b n q car park haha baby brain got her.

 

[Mom2sam]

Lol that's so funny about your sis, oh God i got clumsy mind at best of tomes so God help me i know i get really bad when pregnant. Well i just got reply off my pregnant sis after 4 days she said her 15 month old really a handfull now & she couldn't find her mob bat had died so couldn't even call to try locate it round house & today found it behind the bed her lo had thrown it & she didn't even realise until she needed to make a call. She was saying today he a handfull & think she getting worried how she cope with a new born too bless her. She due in sept

 

[Mom2sam]

Nearly midnight so best get to bed now last day at school for ds tmrw then summer holidays. Need to go sign him up for swimming lessons too some time next week there's a waiting list for summer holidays but i'l try at 2/3 different local ones

 

[Diddy2013]

Aw Mom, hope you feel better sooon!

Diddy, you O yet? hope its soon!

here's to a round of BFPs girls!

Not even close cd20 and nada. Probably not this cycle.