hey ladies.
i work in a hospital... and im frightened to death of being a patient.... i guess for me its knowing what goes on at hospitals and who runs them and what the nurses and docs are thinking. Not all of them dont get me wrong cuz some of them i love and would put my life in there hands no questions asked... but im not keen on the equipment that is mandatory and the ivs when i have my baby if i cant do it my way i will get a midwife and do it somewhere i can do what i want....
i am terrible, terrible with hospitals and doctors. i've not seen my midwife since i was booked in at 8 weeks because i've been too scared, i didn't even have a 12 week scan for the same reason. i thought that being pregnant would make it easier for me, but it hasn't, at all. i do have some pretty deep rooted issues though, heh. i'm in contacted with my GP and a psychologist though to try to work things out so that i can start having maternity care without having a melt down psychologically.