Anyone pregnant after 2 years LTTC

[Bea1986]

Hi Ladies,

I was just wondering if anyone else was in my position, i would love some buddies to talk to.

I have just had my BFP after 2 years of trying, it was our last cycle of clomid before IVF.

I am terrified that it wont stick, after all this time i want this so badly it hurts,

 

[Demotivated]

Why do you think it wont stick? Whatever you think, happens to the baby...so be positive ALL THE TIME!!! You deserve this baby for your patience!! good luck

 

[NHKate]

I've been trying for #2 for 2 years, but with a different problem... conceived several times, but miscarried each time. I have carried my daughter to full term, with a nice, healthy uncomplicated pregnancy, so I know my body can do it. I've had lots of tests and no answers about why I've kept having miscarriages.

So far so good this time around, so I'm trying to stay positive.

 

[LoveInshallah]

Hi, we were ttc a little less than 2 years but I have short cycles so it was more than 24 without a single positive, and we had several IUIs along the way. We were only doing them for insurance purposes before moving to ivf. Our situations aren't exactly the same but I think I can relate. We didn't believe it, either. Especially having had a trigger shot we couldn't fully trust the positive hpts even though anyone else would have. I peed on, literally, about 30 (cheap!) hpts. For weeks. I wondered if the only reason my period hadn't come was the progesterone supplement. Even after getting 3 hcg blood tests to check doubling, of course we logically understood we were finally pregnant but we couldn't believe it emotionally. Does that make any sense?? We then had a misdiagnosed blighted ovum, which at the time made me feel like I was right all along and there really was no baby. Even after seeing the baby on 4 ultrasounds since then and separately hearing the heartbeat, even being 13 weeks, even having HG and a million severe symptoms I'd never have if I weren't pregnant.....it's still hard to believe it's real and not all just a dream. I mean, I know I'm pregnant and I've known for months. But those dozens of negative hpts and dimmed hopes along the way do leave their scars.

I will pray that your baby sticks!

 

[VickyLou]

I tried for 7half years with one miscarriage in 2011. I finally came to the conclusion it would never happen for us and if it did it wouldn't stick. But I'm now 20 weeks pregnant with my first. I still don't believe it sometimes.

Praying your little one sticks hope you a have a very happy healthy 9 months

 

[silmarien]

Had my 1st BPF after 2.5 years of trying. Sadly, it ended in MC (May 21, 2014). Then 5-6 weeks later with no cycle after the MC - I got another

I call this little one my miracle baby and I hope that he/she sticks and becomes a take home baby. The wait is killing me - just wanna be 38w preggers and be almost in labor!

 

[xxshellsxx]

i'm pregnant after 13 years ltttc - with one angel last october. My final round of clomid and that was my last hope.... turns out it was the one i was waiting for and now almost 10 weeks with twins x

the fear i have had until i had my ultrasound (only on Monday at 9+1) was unreal - all i can suggest is enjoy the moments where the anxiety isn't there, and seriously you have to think positively about every day you make it another day. Thinking positive starts to overide the anxiety and It all starts to feel real and safer soon enough xx

 

[Bea1986]

You ladies are all fantastic, i know you all understand how it feels. The whole process and disappointments along the way of ttc for such a long time certainly does leave scars and it will probably stay with us throughout our whole lives, it makes us who we are now.

Best of luck to all of you, your stories are inspiring and you all deserve your take home babies x

 

[whigfield]

3 years of LTTC and recurrent losses, and in first tri, I was a complete nervous wreck. I completely understand how you're feeling.

I'm sure you'll be fine and this baby will stick and before you know it, you'll be relaxing a little more in second tri and feeling kicks. Just remember there is more chance of the pregnancy working out than not! Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

 

[brittany12]

Almost 3 years lttc and natural bfp this past cycle!

Just have faith and stay positive!

 

[skyesmom]

Why do you think it wont stick? Whatever you think, happens to the baby...so be positive ALL THE TIME!!! You deserve this baby for your patience!! good luck

i find this a bit superficial and harmful advice to give to anyone who has ever had trouble conceiving, who has experienced losses or who fears one.

your thoughts have nothing to do with the baby. literally every woman has had the thought of the "what if something goes wrong" regarding each pregnancy. someone who's battled with infertility even more so.

staying positive all the time is not human. not only an attitude like this denies large and valid part of human experiences here, but it also implies that you know all the time, 100% what is positive and what is negative, and that all your judgements are perfect and flawless. i sincerely doubt there is something like that on earth.

also, having had losses myself, i can tell you they occurred independently of what i have thought or how i have felt. also, experiencing losses and difficulty to conceive leads you through lot of heartbreak and fearing that the same will repeat all over again is normal. it is human.

i find it also harsh to imply that "whatever you think happens to the baby", as something like this makes 99% of women who have had losses responsible of it. when there is no such thing. children come when they want to come.
otherwise, there wouldn't be great people who would give anything for a baby who stay childless, or people living in hard circumstances (drug addicts, people in war zones, famine, extreme poverty, etc) that just go on having them.

 

[Bea1986]

Skyesmom, i am very sorry for your loss. Thank you for saying that negativity wont hurt the baby. That's what i need to hear right now as i cant help it. I am so sure that i will end up losing this pregnancy. I have been brown spotting for 2 weeks and I feel like i am walking on thin ice that will break at any minute and my period will come.

Struggling to conceive for so long really does create scars and damages a person, its no wonder I feel so negative when all i have had it negativity all this time for 2 years, so much disappointment. I won't ever feel happy until the day i get to hold my own baby in my arms.

I honestly don't think Demotivated meant anything bad by it, she was just suggesting that positive thinking is powerful and a good thing which is true, but sadly its just easier said than done for me.

I hope you are doing ok Skyesmom, I am always here if you ever want to PM me or pop over to my journal

 

[Bea1986]

Whigfield and Brittany12 thank you, and congratulations on your pregnancies, you both deserve your babies you have waited so long and been through so much to get them. x

 

[katestar53]

Such huge congratulations on all your pregnancies ladies... Such beautiful miracles I've had four losses in total, just hope this little peanut sticks! Xxx

 

[Bea1986]

Thanks and congratulations Katestar53

 

[Elphabaa77]

My husband and I had been trying for 2 years and 4 months when we finally got our first ever BFP on 6/20/14. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and luteal phase defect, and he was diagnosed with low sperm count, low motility, and his morphology wasn't normal either. Our reproductive endocrinologist basically told us this wouldn't happen without the bare minimum of a sperm wash and IUI. Of course, I wasted 4 cycles on Clomid because my OBGYN couldn't properly read my husband's sperm analysis. Anyhow, I found these 3 different FerilAid supplements for men and hubby started taking them... his count and motility really started to improve! However, my reproductive endocrinologist still wouldn't let me try a Femara cycle to see what happened. (I responded well to Clomid, so I thought Femara may be even better.) He said we would still need at least a sperm wash and IUI. Well we did an IUI and their timing was off because my trigger didn't work. I knew it didn't work, but the nurses weren't listening. They knew nothing about temp charting. So that cycle obviously failed and we were about to just give up. IVF seemed too risky considering the odds of success, plus it didn't look like we would be getting a fertility loan since I would have to apply for it by myself. (Hubby's credit is bad from before we met)

I applied for a fertility loan on June 5th, and of course was denied. I pretty much was giving up. I told hubby it was going to take a miracle at this point. Then, I got my first ever BFP 2 weeks later.

I am terrified because my old OBGYN seemed to be a big believer in the whole 'if your progesterone is low, the baby won't be viable' philosophy. My progesterone was 8.8 at 10dpo, so my reproductive endocrinologist put me on prometrium twice a day. So I am definitely terrified I am going to lose this one. My betas were good, but after 3 they said they didn't need to do anything else until my ultrasound. That's this coming Tuesday.

I haven't had any sort of spotting or bleeding, but it seems like progesterone could fight that off and prolong a miscarriage. So I know I will feel at least somewhat better when I hear a heart beat on Tuesday. I know we won't be out of the woods, but it's like the first stepping stone.

Best of luck to you Bea! This is such a terrifying time... but from what I hear, you never really lose the fear of something happening until that beautiful miracle is healthy and in your arms.

 

[skyesmom]

i'm sure demotivated meant nothing bad with her post, and that she only meant to help, yet the wording of it seemed a bit insensitive in a delicate situation like this.

it's been two years since my last loss and i've learned to cope with it over time, and as well as live with this longing of holding my baby in my arms - one of the toughest things to accept and learn, really.

worry and fear are normal when you've been ripped of your innocence like this, in terms of having children. we spend our teens listening to how easy and risky it is to get pregnant, that in the end we're led to believe the first touch with sperm will knock u up, and that getting pregnant equals a baby. but the infertility struggles and losses really tear all this apart.

i don't wanna say - worry your head off. i just wanna say - don't beat yourself up on top of it, if you do worry. you don't need any additional burdens to deal with.
it is perfectly normal to have those feelings, and the easier you accept them, the more peace you will find. denying them or labeling them as negative (and then feeling guilty because of having them and not being able to shake them off) will only do worse.

sure, thinking positive is important BUT it is not everything. it would be like eating chocolate cake for breakfast, lunch AND dinner.

there's really no rule with this.

i really really hope that everything goes well with your pregnancy and that in the end you get your hold your perfect little bean! they are already a miracle!


PM if you wanna talk anytime

 

[Bea1986]

Elphabaa77, congratulations on your little miracle, i can see from your story that you have been through so much to finally get your BFP and its so fantastic that it happened naturally for you, what a lovely surprise. I hope your appointment goes well on Tuesday, i'm sure it will, and once you hear that heartbeat you can hopefully relax a bit more and enjoy your pregnancy.


Skyesmom, thank you so much for your well wishes You put it so rightly when you said ripped of our innocence. We spend our adult life dreaming of having a baby and expecting it to happen to easily. Infertility and miscarriage are not often talked about in general society, so we are not prepared for the positions we are put in to when the dream baby doesnt become a reality so easily as we thought it would. Thank you for your kind words, i have added you to my friends list

 

[LoveCakes]

Congratulations! We were ttc for over 2 years and it took a few rounds of clomid. I know what's it's like to be in total shock.

I didn't really let myself believe it until second tri, I just got on with my everyday life, I didn't even want to tell people because I was scared to tempt fate and let go. I had a lot of bleeding too around 10 to 14 weeks and felt like it just wasn't meant to be but here I am at 36 weeks.

I hope you have a great pregnancy!

 

[mammag]

I'm pregnant after nearly 6 years off lttc, I also spotted brown to pink for two weeks. Baby is healthy and strong and I get to find out gender soon! The worry doesn't end, but it does subside a litte. It goes from all day every day to just occasionally. So, it'll get better. Congrats!