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Clover Jane
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Facking IBS is flaring up again.
I've been constipated, so I took some Colace today.
I was woken up an hour ago with horrifying stomach cramps. I would've assumed i was miscarrying, except I'm all too familiar with these cramps: it's an IBS flare-up.
So I ended up sitting on the toilet for 45 minutes, crying, shaking, blacking out from pain, and having more diarrhea than I would've imagined possible.
I had to pull the bathroom trashcan in front of me, so that I could vomit into it repeatedly.
And I had to do something that I've only done a few times before, during my worst attacks: run a hot bath and soak in it. This sometimes eases the bowel spasms, but this time it didn't help much.
This illness seriously makes me want to die.
Thankfully, my symptoms have gotten a lot better as I've gotten older, but now that I'm pregnant again, they're back in full force. They haven't been this bad since I was a teenager, at which point they were so terrible they caused me to drop out of school.
God i hate this. I'm having anxiety attacks, just imagining my next bout of IBS.
At least this time it happened at home, rather than in public. Thank god for small mercies.

I've been constipated, so I took some Colace today.
I was woken up an hour ago with horrifying stomach cramps. I would've assumed i was miscarrying, except I'm all too familiar with these cramps: it's an IBS flare-up.
So I ended up sitting on the toilet for 45 minutes, crying, shaking, blacking out from pain, and having more diarrhea than I would've imagined possible.
I had to pull the bathroom trashcan in front of me, so that I could vomit into it repeatedly.
And I had to do something that I've only done a few times before, during my worst attacks: run a hot bath and soak in it. This sometimes eases the bowel spasms, but this time it didn't help much.
This illness seriously makes me want to die.
Thankfully, my symptoms have gotten a lot better as I've gotten older, but now that I'm pregnant again, they're back in full force. They haven't been this bad since I was a teenager, at which point they were so terrible they caused me to drop out of school.
God i hate this. I'm having anxiety attacks, just imagining my next bout of IBS.
At least this time it happened at home, rather than in public. Thank god for small mercies.
