As my scan edges closer I am getting more and more nervous

[sherlock]

As title really.

I am currently 5w 5d, and have an early scan at 6w 4d. My first pregnancy ended with a mmc (we found at 9w 6d that baby had died at 6w 4d), and my second was a chemical pregnancy.

I don't have any positive experiences of scans - at my first ever scan (7w 5d) we were told baby had a slow heartbeat, and was a week behind growth-wise (based on my dates), then at my second scan we were told about the mmc.

I am so scared that I will be told that there is a slow heartbeat at this scan, or that there won't be a heartbeat / bean at all. Keep nearly crying when I think about it.

I have no symptoms apart from very sore and big boobs, and my tummy being a bit swollen (but I had both of these during the weeks between my scan with the slow heartbeat and the scan where mmc was diagnosed). I'm not as tired as I was during my first pregnancy. I sometimes feel a bit sick, but not that much and haven't been sick (and wasn't with my first one). I wish I was being sick, at least then I would feel reassured.

I know there's nothing anyone can say, just wanted to get it off my chest. The next few days are going to go by very slowly.

 

[Amos2009]

Sherlock- This is just part of being pregnant after a loss I think. It's really terrible that we have lost the innocence of pregnancy and being happy and excited before a scan. I just hope everything is ok and you get to see your little beanie waving

 

[meow951]

As you said there is nothing i can say but i totally know what you mean. I don't get an early scan so i'm thinking about getting a private one. But the thought of being told that bubs has died again sends me into a panic.

I really hope it's good news got you hun, got my fingers crossed! x

 

[Surreygal]

Sherlock, I feel exactly the same way as you. I too had mmc this year and am now pregnant again. I too have had no positive scans and even the one I had two weeks ago made me think I'm having another mmc, but I could be wrong. Being re-scanned Friday and hoping so much all ok, but hard to be positive when last pregnancy didn't get very far. It's very sad how our experiences make us lose any excitement we should be feeling at being pregnant. Will keep my fingers crossed for you that this pregnancy all goes ok. xx

 

[Beadette]

I feel exactly the same. I've had 2 mmc's this year- one in jan and one in April. I am having a scan tomorrow at epu and frankly I'm terrified! I've been having more symptoms but it still frightened me! Xx

 

[welshmummy2be]

i know how you feel about being on edge about your scan, ive had 2 MC, i almost didnt want to tell the doctor i was pregnant last time because i was so frightend to get the scan done (if it wasnt for my partner i dont think i would have rang dr when i did) and after i had the scan for that i was hapy to see healthy heart beat but sadly lost the pregnancy a few days later. now i've had 2 scans for the pregnancy im in now, first scan made me think i lost buba again but was sent for a scan 2 weeks after and buba was doing fine (even tho im still pooping my pants about this pregnancy and MC)

good luck for your scan tho an please post how it went thought are with you xxx

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[hb1]

you will feel like this at every scan - it is so hard after a loss.

hx

 

[sherlock]

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your kind words.

I am sending lots of positive vibes our way that we have happy scans this time around

 

[gemstone]

hey sherlock, hope this helps.. but i hav never been sick during pregnancy apart from in labour wiv my 8 yr old adaughter. and i have been pregnant 4 times and pregnant wiv the 4th now.. and still no being sick.. feel rough tho.. proper bad headaches and waves of feeling sick.. just not sick. i found in may this yr at just 8 weeks my lil bean had stopped growing at 5 weeks. crushed to say the least! b4 that i had to hav key hole surgery as my hormone levels weren't going up as they were suppossed too. so had a scan and just a sac that was very small. so thats why i ahd key hole surgery as they thought is was eptopic.. and after a op, found it weren't and it just wasn't growing rite.
so had a erpc on the 21 jun 2010, and and found out i was pregnant again by the 2nd of august. and i still haven't got much symptons.. sore boobs come and go but have never been too bad. hav gone up a cup size tho. sore only at nite really. i had a scan on tuesday and there was my lil pip at the 6 week mark wiv it lil fetal beating away. don't lose faith babe!! just listen to urself, and think positive.. wishing u all the best!

 

[babysimpson]

Beadette your a day ahead of me but they won't scan me until next week (

sherlock - we are all going through the same fears but maybe in different ways or for different reasons. I'm finding it easier being on here with others who have gone through the same thing as it's better support. Just shout on somebody when you're feeling down and I'm sure you'll get all the support you need to get through this.

 

[Cazamatazaaa]

hey hun! ur dates make u the same time as me, ignore my ticker, (not 100% on dates tbh) due 22nd-24th april!

I had a mmc in june which resulted in a d&c i should of been around 11 weeks by the time the d&c was preformed! it was horrible!

I have a scan on tuesday (31st) and I will be 6w 4d I think, so i know exactly how u feel! let me know how u get on and if u wanna chat msg me

 

[Lucky4]

I am pregnant again after mc 9 months ago. Just 4 weeks but starting to think about early scan and trying to stop feeling negative. I just remind myself that my bfp takes me closer to having a baby. There will be lots of milestones and need to take one by one. Good luck for the scan, I will have mine about 18th September.

 

[gemstone]

wow ur story is so much like mine! i had a md in june and had a d/c that would have made me 11 weeks. here is where my story m ite b a lil different from urs. i found out in may that things weren't going rite. i had scan and a blood tests that showed i had a increase in my hcgs but but only going up by about 57%.. not the 60 at least they like! so after a few weeks of bloods every 2 days. and the scan at only 5 weeks only showed a sac nothing more.. so they wanted another scan in 10 days time. i had another scan and the sac hadn't changed much at all. still only a sac. so they told me it may hav been sudo sac, it could be a eptopic pregnancy. after having a major op in january for a cyst that brusted on my left ovary, which left me needing a graph and internal bleeding. didn't think i would ever fall pregnant again after that. and in may in found i was preg! whoop.. but it quickly turned into a nightmare. after them thinking that in may have been a sudo sac. i had keyhole surgey to see if it was in my tubes. and it wasn't in my tubes it was in my womb.was crushed after all that. it was in the right place all along! but they told me my tubes looked like they didn't work. which i looked at them with amazement.right so it in my womb and not in my tubes?? and yet i'm broken ?? something wasn't sitting right with me. anyhoo they finally let me get on with my pregnancy. but i had another scan in 10 more days. the day before my scan i started lossing brown bleed. went to the scan the next day to find out. it still hadn't changed much. it had gotten bigger and now a yolk sac.. but still no baby.. and i should of at this point been nearly 9 weeks. so i was told that i would lose the baby, go homew and get some rest take pain killer if need. the bleeding stopped and i thought it was all over. can try and move on. did a preg test for the docs. and i was still pregnancy after bleeding very heavy for 10 days! had another scan it was still there holding on for dear life. really thought i must hav been a bad person in a past life to still hav a pregnacy trying oh so hard not to be lost. and yet after all my bodies effort i still couldn't have my baby.. and now i pregnant again.. just 6 weeks after having a erpc.. its a very nervous time for me, but had a early scan this time and saw my lil beating fetal pole at just 6weeks.. so may just may.. i will hav my baby this time!!..
sorry to have gone on for a bit musty have been very boring to read. but just really need somewhere to vent.. take care hope everything works out for us all tyhis time round!! xx