Mon_n_john
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Warning, long rant but I need to vent:
I had an early mc last month, my 4th one. I am grateful that I do have two healthy boys but DH and I would really like one more so even with a history of recurrent miscarriages we have decided to TTC #3 as soon as possible since I just turned 35.
Last month after seeing my RE for a check-up after the mc she said "You know, if you get pregnant again and have another miscarriage we need to run some immunilogical blood tests to see if it's causing implantation issues."
Inside I was thinking, gee, why are we waiting for another mc? Why not do it now? She mentioned they were very expensive. I recentky found out just how expensive, $766 and my insurance won't cover it.
Well, fast forward to today which is 15 DPO. We tried to get pregnant again this month and it didn't work but it's OK, I'm not upset, there is always next month. So I'm talking to DH and saying what the RE said to me and asked him if we should just go ahead and have the tests done now so that in case there is an issue with that it can be treated next time I get pregnant again.
What is this man's response? "I think we should give it another month." HUH? Give what another month? He made it sound like waiting another month to see if I got pregnant again. Hello, has this man not been here with me through all these MCs? I have no problems getting pregnant, it's staying pregnant. I got pregnant 4 times in 6 months for God's sake.
What upsets me is that I'm trying to prevent yet another one from happening and he's almost acting like another mc is unlikely, which unfortunately, I know it's not.
So, I asked, "Why are you considering not getting the tests done now? Is it the money?" No, he says, it's that he doesn't think that's it. I'm thinking, well, if money isn't the issue, who cares? At least then we'll know that's not it. I tell him I'll do whatever he wants to do and he just stays quiet, goes in and out of the house doing chores like we are discussing our grocery list. I mean, this is serious. For pete's sake sit down and talk to me.
I explain to him that I'm the one that has to physically go through these mcs and it's very hard on me emotionally and physically and I really want to avoid having another one. More silence. Whatever, I know how to take a hint, I guess he doesn't want to talk about it.
It makes me so mad because this was all his idea. I'm suffering, trying to make his dreams of another child a reality, and he can't give me 5 minutes of his time and actually discuss options with me. Two things dawned on me today:
1. the next time I'll make the decission that I feel is best for me and my baby and my body.
2. My husband has major communication issues.
That's what I get for trying to involve him in the decission making process, silence and a lack of compassion. Worst part is, I have NO ONE else to talk to, no one except you ladies and I know that most of you understand how lonely and sad that feels. It's hard when you have to internalize all your anguish, pain, stress, and fears. So at least I have you gals.
As for the blood tests, I'm going to call my RE and schedule the tests asap. I asked him for his opinion and he gave me none so like always, I guess it all falls back on me.
Thanks for listening and sorry about the loooong post but I needed to vent and really have no one else to talk to. Thank you
I had an early mc last month, my 4th one. I am grateful that I do have two healthy boys but DH and I would really like one more so even with a history of recurrent miscarriages we have decided to TTC #3 as soon as possible since I just turned 35.
Last month after seeing my RE for a check-up after the mc she said "You know, if you get pregnant again and have another miscarriage we need to run some immunilogical blood tests to see if it's causing implantation issues."
Inside I was thinking, gee, why are we waiting for another mc? Why not do it now? She mentioned they were very expensive. I recentky found out just how expensive, $766 and my insurance won't cover it.
Well, fast forward to today which is 15 DPO. We tried to get pregnant again this month and it didn't work but it's OK, I'm not upset, there is always next month. So I'm talking to DH and saying what the RE said to me and asked him if we should just go ahead and have the tests done now so that in case there is an issue with that it can be treated next time I get pregnant again.
What is this man's response? "I think we should give it another month." HUH? Give what another month? He made it sound like waiting another month to see if I got pregnant again. Hello, has this man not been here with me through all these MCs? I have no problems getting pregnant, it's staying pregnant. I got pregnant 4 times in 6 months for God's sake.
What upsets me is that I'm trying to prevent yet another one from happening and he's almost acting like another mc is unlikely, which unfortunately, I know it's not.
So, I asked, "Why are you considering not getting the tests done now? Is it the money?" No, he says, it's that he doesn't think that's it. I'm thinking, well, if money isn't the issue, who cares? At least then we'll know that's not it. I tell him I'll do whatever he wants to do and he just stays quiet, goes in and out of the house doing chores like we are discussing our grocery list. I mean, this is serious. For pete's sake sit down and talk to me.
I explain to him that I'm the one that has to physically go through these mcs and it's very hard on me emotionally and physically and I really want to avoid having another one. More silence. Whatever, I know how to take a hint, I guess he doesn't want to talk about it.
It makes me so mad because this was all his idea. I'm suffering, trying to make his dreams of another child a reality, and he can't give me 5 minutes of his time and actually discuss options with me. Two things dawned on me today:
1. the next time I'll make the decission that I feel is best for me and my baby and my body.
2. My husband has major communication issues.
That's what I get for trying to involve him in the decission making process, silence and a lack of compassion. Worst part is, I have NO ONE else to talk to, no one except you ladies and I know that most of you understand how lonely and sad that feels. It's hard when you have to internalize all your anguish, pain, stress, and fears. So at least I have you gals.
As for the blood tests, I'm going to call my RE and schedule the tests asap. I asked him for his opinion and he gave me none so like always, I guess it all falls back on me.
Thanks for listening and sorry about the loooong post but I needed to vent and really have no one else to talk to. Thank you