Back in the nightmare zone - when will this end?

[Alison]

Hi everyone,
Well, I had to go back for yet another blood test today and another scan. Until this morning I thought I was 6 weeks, 5 days pregnant, based on the date of my last MP. Distressingly, stilll zippo on the scan. At least, that was what they sonographers said, then they said (as if I wasn't there), "oo, that could be a very small, 4-week old sac." I jumped and asked them to point it out to me, but they zipped their mouths and kept mumbling that they couldn't be sure. Then they said (again, just to themselves), "that looks like a minor bleed there". "WHAT MINOR BLEED WHERE?" I demanded but again, they were reluctant to say anything more. I waited alone and in a very tearful state (no, not tearful, wailing state by now) on my own in a waiting room as my husband couldn't get the time off work to be with me. Total nightmare. Then the saint that is the head midwife explained to me it could still be ectopic, or I'm not as far along as they thought or it could be twins. So, more blood taken, and results were good. HcG still "going up nicely". So I've got to go back yet again on Wednesday for yet another blood test and another bloomin' scan with a different sonographer. The midwife said she thinks I'm around 5 weeks pregnant so this worry could all be for nothing.
All in all, total nightmare! Thanks ladies, had to get all that off my chest.

 

[Dee_H]

Wow..what a roller coaster of emotions...you poor thing!! I hope everything turns out ok for you.

 

[Samantha675]

That is terrible of those techs. My fingers are crossed for you. Hang in there!

 

[supernurse]

It's so not thoughtful at all when they do that whispering stuff and don't talk to you, like your invisible and your not human.

Anyway I hope that you get a better sonographer on Wed who can actually give you some answers. xx

 

[Jenny]

Can't believe the techs did that, very unprofessional.
I hope everything is ok hon. Good luck on your next appointment

 

[RachiePachie]

I'd have let my pregnant emotions go and I'd have flipped out demanding they tell me and not mutter between themselves. GAH!

I hope everything is ok for you hun!

 

[Hope2BeAmommy]

UNBELIEVABLE!! Hang in there...Blessings your way!

 

[Tiffers]

I thought you could use a hug.. Hang in there sweetheart! I am sorry that you are having to through all of this. Hopefully on Wed someone who has enough brains and courtesy to NOT whisper like idiots and actually knows how to use a sonogram machine will be able to ease your mind!! Sorry hun..

 

[elles28]

I had the same thing happen......had 2 scans in last 2 weeks & there was nothing there...on the last one the MW said she thought she had saw something but then couldnt find it??!! I went today for my third & there was this sac with a heartbeat...I prey that you will see the same soon...sending you lots of Elle xx

 

[Imi]

Oh hun what a total hellish nightmare!

I hope you soon get the answers that you need.

Some of the tec's sound VERY unproffesional! maybe think of making a complaint when the time is right.

Take care hun, here if you want to chat

Imi

xxx

 

[Tam]

Keep your chin up hun and hang on in there.....I hope Wednesday brings you some welcomed answers! x

 

[CK Too]

Hope the appt next week goes much better - I´m sure it will. Stay positive

 

[Alison]

Thanks everyone for your lovely messages of support - very much appreciated. I feel very sick this morning and am trying not to think about the whole pallava. I know I'm definitely pregnant and as my wonderful hubby is saying, our baby is just playing hide and seek.

 

[shimmyshimmy]

Hi Hun,
I went through exactly the same thing last week and the week before, I had the same mumblings, worry about fluid, and not being able to see anything. But at the end of last week they spotted a sac but no heartbeat. They said it was too early to see that, but they were satisfied things were progressing normally in the end. It was horrendous all the worry, so I know how you feel hun. I am sure something will be seen the next time. Make sure you drink loads and loads of water, it is far clearer for them then. The first time I went in I felt sick so I just couldnt drink very much water, but last week I drunk gallons of the stuff, I felt fit to burst, and the sac was as clear as day.
They also said I was a potental ectopic. But so far so good.
Please try not to worry hun.
Take care and keep us updated.
xxx

 

[poppy]

Hi Alison,

I hope things are going ok for you. How are you feeling hun?

 

[RachieH]

Hiya Alison

Just want to wish you lots of https://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a28/RachieH/Graphics/goodluck1.gifhttps://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a28/RachieH/Graphics/goodluck1.gifhttps://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a28/RachieH/Graphics/goodluck1.gif for your next scan (tomorrow?)
You could be less pregnant than what the hospital assume by using your LMP if you ovulated later or implantion occured later than "normal". I had a scan with my son when I was just over 5 weeks pregnant and there was only the tiniest of gestational sacs (They thought I was about 6 weeks, but I knew I ovulated later as I have longer than average cycles and was more like 5 weeks) I had a scan a week later and the baby and heartbeat could be seen, but only by a transvaginal scan, not an abdominal scan. What type of scan did you have? If you had an abdominal scan you would have seen a lot less.
Hopefully you will see the baby at your next scan!
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[Alison]

Hi everyone.
I'm feeling very sad today. I had a nightmare at the hospital all day yesterday. My pregnancy has failed and today I've got to go to have an injection to ensure the embryo doesn't develop any further and to end the pregnancy. I avoided a laporoscopy by a hair's breath, they had even made up a bed for me.
I can't begin to say how horrendous the whole day was. I had yet another scan (abdominal and external) and I was told to prepare myself for the worst. There was still no sac and my endometrium looked irregular, which I was told was not a good sign. I saw a doctor and a registrar, both of whom said all hope was lost as my blood count was going up, but not as it should be. I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. I can't cry any more. I have a dull ache in my tummy today so maybe mother nature is about to induce a miscarriage. They said they'll never know whether it was ectopic or a failed inuterine pregnancy. I just want to feel OK again now. I'm so sad and disappointed and have a nagging feeling of loss.
Poppy, I sympathise and I hope you and I have better news very soon. I've just got to get through this injection now. I may still have to have the dreaded laparoscopy under general anaesthetic, but hopefully the injection will do the trick.
Thanks to everyone for your messages of support. I guess this time it just wasn't meant to be for me.
x

 

[skiwi]

you poor thing sweetheart, they should not have started saying something, and not given you the answers, hope everything works out for you....

 

[scotchbonnet]

Thinking of you and wishing you strength in this difficult time.

 

[Alison]

Thanks everyone for your messages of support. I've not viewed this thread for a while as I've been more on the Miscarriage & Loss Support area.

I had the injection yesterday after a rollercoaster nightmare of a week. I feel better today. The injection was not so bad and I do think it was an ectopic pregnancy as I had started to get isolated mild pain on the left of my abdomen - an ominous sign. However, it has reduced to a mild ache today and I've started bleeding.

I'm not out of the woods yet as I've got to have follow-up blood tests next week but I think the physical signs are encouraging. I'm going to come out of this much better informed and a stronger person. My husband and I are stronger than ever having gone through this together.

Good luck to everyone on this area of the site. I hope to be back here and away from the Miscarriage area in a month or two. x