Bah Humbug!

[pinkmummy]

I feel like such a scrouge when it comes to Christmas!

I can never wait for it to be over. Its due to many things really.

1. Because I find it so stressful trying to please EVERYONE and feel disappointed as it is almost impossible

2. I just can't actually get into an excited spirit no matter what I try. Wrapping presents, listening to Christmas songs, taking Caitlin to see Santa even!

3. My nana died on 23rd December. I was only 9 when she died but me and my nana were really close. I had never really gotten on well with my mum from being a young girl so my nana was like my mum. Every year I keep thinking it will get easier but it doesn't it still hurts so much knowing that she's not here to see me, to see Caitlin or to see Thomas. I know she'd have loved them both and would have spoilt them rotten!

I know I probably sound ungrateful coz it's supposed to be a happy time of year but I just never feel excited and I feel awful for Caitlin, coz I think she's starting to pick up on it

Maybe it's my hormones making me feel like this, who knows?

 

[doctordeesmrs]

Kinda know how your feeling hun. Would love to shut the door and forget it this year but its Rocco's 1st. I want it to be special. I was really close to my nan and she died last wednesday. Christmas will be so hard this year i really hope it does get easier

 

[massacubano]

Those hormones may be helping. I am sure that it may also been losing nana around this time of year.

 

[nataliecn]

i didn't lose my grandma around christmas, but since she passed away, christmas has never been the same. i haven't really bothered doing christmas with my dad's side of the family, as i find it very unbearable... even though it's been nearly 7 years.... it's still hard without her there.

i definitely understand how you feel hun!

 

[pinkmummy]

Thanks ladies : Im feeling a bit better today but still not in the Christmas spirit. Maybe when we're setting Caitlins presents out tomorrow I'll feel more Christmassy. Thnaks for the replies, maybe it is just the hormones lol xxx